mY jOuRnEy...

J-E-S-U-S!

2006-04-12T09:38:00.000+08:00

I hope hindi maging traditional ang four days na dadaan, na mauubos lang ang bakasyon ko sa pahinga. I hope talagang pakapag rest ako ngayong Holy Week...rest in the Lord, makapag reflect sa life, how far ive grown in my faith and where i am now in my relationship with Him. I pray that my break be fruitful. Hmmmn...

A blessed Holy Week to everyone!

ONLY SMART PEOPLE CAN

2006-04-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

Olny srmat poelpe can. I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmeneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmaibrgde Unvirestiy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tinhg is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porlbem. Tihs is bcuseae the haumn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!!!

AFFIDAVIT OF LOSS

2006-04-03T09:35:00.000+08:00

A F F I D A V I T

REPUBLIC OF THE PHILIPPINES }
__________________________ } S. S.

I, JEANNE ROBERT B. CALIXTO, of legal age, Filipino, resident of No. 39 APA Compound, Philand Drive, Barangay Pasong Tamo, Tandang Sora Avenue, Quezon City, after having been duly sworn in accordance with law, freely and voluntary, without undue pressure from anyone or fear of intimidation and by way of affidavit do hereby depose and state that:

While on board a jeepney bound for SM North last Sunday, 2 April 2006, at around 7:00 to 7:30 pm, the jeep was help-up at the University Avenue (UP Diliman) corner Commonwealth Avenue;

The four hold-up men were armed with knives, an icepick and a gun, and because of freight and fear for my life, I did not resist when they collected our wallets and cellphones;

That I am an employee of Pentathlon Systems Resources Inc., and in my wallet were my office identification card and other cards I-Bank ATM, Medserv, Dental Health, BIR, Philhealth issued to me in connection with my employment thereto;

That I am executing this affidavit to be able to secure replacement for the cards I lost;

Affiant further sayeth naught.

JEANNE ROBERT B. CALIXTO

Affiant

IN WITNESS THEREOF, the undersigned has caused these presents to be executed at Makati City, Philippines, on this 3rd day of April, 2006.

______________________

Jeanne Robert B. Calixto

SWORN TO THE SUBSCRIBED before me at Makati City, Philippines, on this 3rd day of April, 2006, the affiant exhibiting to me her residence certificate No. 16340219 Issued at Manila on February 09, 2006.

Doc. No. _______
Page No. _______
Book No. _______
Series of 2006

NOTARY PUBLIC

Until __________

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Now I know kung bakit hirap na hirap akong mag ipon ng pambili ng cellphone ko at kung bat paulit ulit akong sinasabihan ng mga friends ko na bumili ako ng hiwalay na lalagyan ng mga cards (ids, atm & others) para daw pag nawala ang wallet ko eh wala masyadong hassle.

That freakin' gun! Hindi tuloy ako nakatulog kagabi kakaisip kung saan na ako dadaan pag commuting ako kasi natatakot na ko sa Commonwealth....grrr! Mayabang sila palibhasa may baril sila! Haha!

Haaay hassel pa tuloy kasi madaming ekek pa ang pag kuha ng replacement for the IDs at magastos pa...errr nawalan ka na nga ng cellphone at pera gagastos pa ulit! Waaa if i know itatapon lang naman nila yung wallet kasi pera lang ang kailangan nila bat kasi di nalang pera ang hiningi e. Kainis andun pa yung mga so treasured pix ko with old friends. Okay lang yung pera kasi kikitain naman yun kaso kasi yung mga money cant buy na stuff sa loob eeeeee!!!

But still i Thank you Lord okay kaming lahat, super powerful talaga name mo Jesus!

BREAK NA TAYO, AYOKO NA SAYO!

2006-03-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

No more Starbucking... Gloria Jeans na ako... Thanks to Milks advice... ='D

DARLING OF HEAVEN

2006-03-26T10:49:00.000+08:00

This is for You! For all You've done for me...

WORTHY IS THE LAMB

Thank you for the cross Lord

Thank you for the price You paid

Bearing all my sin and shame

In love You came

And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord

Thank you for the nail pierced hands

Washed me in Your cleansing flow

Now all I know

Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb

Seated on the throne

Crown You now with many crown

You reign victorious

High and lifted up

Jesus Son of God

The Darling of Heaven crucified

Worthy is the Lamb

Once again i thank You Lord. Forever ill thank You...

AFTER 6 MONTHS

2006-03-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

Regular na akoooooooo! Hehe! By Gods grace... Haaay, ang bait Mo talaga Lord! Sana lang makabili na ko ng bagong phone bago mag self distruct ang phone ko, hehe!

TLW SA MONTALBAN

2006-02-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

View from the deck

Bestfriends ni Ate Vi...hehe!

Mica Bear, Suzy, Ate Vi & Me!

Mica Bear & Ivan's Team

Ace, Kitch & Dimp's Team

Liway & Sarah's Team

Cux & iYa's Team

Suzy & Bobbie's Team

True Love Waits Montalban!

ONE SWEET DAY

2006-02-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

A bar of my favorite Butterfinger after lunch. A short walk with a friend while having Apple and lychee (Big Chill) & Beef Pattie (Jamaican). Sweet! Happy Valentine's Day Pips!

SPARKS

2006-02-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

It only takes one spark to start a fire burning! ='P

Joel & Jewel in the Palace...haha!

CYM & Friends

Tiring day kahapon pero masaya! Grabe, toxic pala maring bar tender pero masaya! Haha! Basta, ang enjoy ako mag prepare and all. Ang saya-saya talaga, eva!

WOW

2006-01-27T13:28:00.000+08:00

Halos isang buwan naaaa mabait parin siya, winner ka talaga Lord!

RAC GET TOGETHER & ELECTION OF OFFICERS

2006-01-08T04:32:00.000+08:00

Kahapon ang first ever election of officers ng club na inattendan ko, iba talaga pag first time may hindi malilimutang experience lagi. Pero di din naman siguro nila ako iboboto kung alam nilang hindi ko kaya & hindi naman ako hahayaan ni Lord na manalo kung alam kong hindi ko kaya... Bakit nga ba kasi iniisip ko na hindi ko kaya, haller Bie?!

To all RAC Paraiso Members: Thanks sa tiwala ninyo, sana kung gaano kalaki tiwala ninyo ganun din yung maging suporta ninyo sa term ko. I'm not promising na my term will be the best term ever in the history of Paraiso but a term that will make a difference. May the Lord bless us & guide us always!

Lord bless the ExeCom as we lead the club and please prepare me na din habang hindi pa ko nakaupo. Haaay, basta Lord pag ayoko wag kayo papayag ha?! Alam Mo naman ang tigas ng ulo ko pero alam ko din na makulit ka & patient ka. Kaya natin to, Jesus agenda!

RETURN OF THE COMEBACK

2006-01-06T12:16:00.000+08:00

Pahabol na regalo from my Boss na fresh from the US. Grabe workaholic ever, walang pahi-pahinga, trabaho agad siya. Infairness mabait na siya ha?! Lord ito ba gift mo sakin ngayong New Year? Well, what can I say...You never fail to surprise me! Infairness iba ka talaga!

PASOK NANAMAN

2006-01-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

Tuloy ang buhay. Hay, may pasok nanaman. Parang ayoko na, di na ata ako tatagal pa dito...

PAALAM NA!

2005-12-28T14:50:00.000+08:00

Never ko naimagine ang mag lakad papalabas ng APA na nakasunod sa isang karo ng patay akala ko kasi matagal pa bago magumpisang malagas ang barkada, kala ko tatanda pa kami at magkakaanak na buo parin ang samahan. Sana kung gaano ko kabilis nabasa ang text ni P nung ibalita niyang wala na si Ton ay ganun din kadaling tanggapin na sumalangi na siya...

FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS FOREVER

Packing up the dreams God planted

In the fertile soil of you

I can't believe the hopes He's granted

Means a chapter of your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever

If the Lord's the Lord of them

And a friend will not say never

'Cause the welcome will not end

Though it's hard to let you go

In the Father's hands we know

That a lifetime's not too long

To live as friends

And with the faith and love God's given

Springing from the hope we know

We will pray the joy you live in

Is the strength that now you show

We'll keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever

If the Lord's the Lord of them

And a friend will not say never

'Cause the welcome will not end

Though it's hard to let you go

In the Father's hands we know

That a lifetime's not too long

To live as friends

No a lifetime's not too long To live as friends!

Trip to Ilocos

Tama na muna, bakasyon naman muna kasmi sa malayo para maiba. Naging mahirap ang taon na ito sana dumating ang araw na kapag binalikan ko ang mga nangyari ay akoy ngingiti at magpapasalamat sa magagandang aral na idinulot ng mga pasubok na dumaan. Kung kailan, hindi ko alam...sana lang wag matagalan. Mabigat na masyado, mukhang bibitiw na ako...

THE BABY BROTHER I NEVER HAD

2005-12-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

A very sweet and caring friend...

We had so much fun together...

Lots of sweet memories to keep...

Hmmmn...

GONE TOO SOON
Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soonLike a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon
Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night
Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon
Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon
Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon
Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night
Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon

Still, I thank you Lord for the 13 years that you shared him to us...

LAMAY SA PASKO

2005-12-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

Kahit anu man ay dapat masaya ang Pasko kasi birthday ni Jesus. But i have to admit na di talaga ako masaya... joyful? maybe... i don't know! Pero ayus naman kasi nagsama sama ulit kaming magkakababata, kaya lang sana sa susunod wag naman dahil sa ganung okasyon. Namiss ko sila... namiss ko ang simpleng buhay... namiss ko ang dati... sana bumalik ulit sa lahat ang dati... Asa pa ko...

TODAY MY BELOVED ANGEL LEFT

2005-12-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

12:36 am

Ang pagpanaw ng mahal naming bunso: Ang mensaheng galing sa kapatid ko na dumurog ng puso ko... "Wla na daw c t0n." Parang ayokong maniwala sa nabasa ko. Hindi ko na naantay mag park ng maayos si RJ, tumakbo na ako agad papasok ng ospital na tila hindi ako sinita ng guard dahil nga madaling araw na at bawal na magpapasok ng bisita. Dumeretso sa ICU, sa hallway palang lahat ay naka tungo na, si Tito Edgar palakad lakad, si P, Dhes nakatayo at umiiyak, si Andrew, maluha luhang tulala. Tumigil ako at nagtanung, "Ano na?!" Sagot sila, "Wala na". Hindi ako makaiyak, parang ayokong maniwala para kasing hindi totoo, hindi ko alam kung pano ko iintindihin... Tinanung ko kung pwede pang sumilip, oo daw. Pagpasok ko ng ICU wala na ang mga tubong nakakabit sakanya, wala na din ang kumot niya parang tulog lang. Tinulugan na niya talaga kami...

Lord, ano toh di ko gets talaga e?!

THE DOOR & THE KEY

2005-12-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

The doctors gave Ton-ton 72 hours. Kelan ba mauubos ang bad news na duamrating?! Gosh, I really can't believe everything that's been happening lately, im still hoping that this is just a bad dream... Na magigising ako at okay naman pala talaga ang lahat! Lord ano bang plan mo?! C'mon!
But then again if he's getting near the door i should now guide him on how to claim his key...By faith we prayed and he accepted Him. All glory & honor to you Lord... Atleast i know that whatever happens ill see him again. Kahit papaano medyo nabawasan na ng konti ang bigat ng loob ko ngayon...

MASAMANG PANGINIP

2005-12-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

Galing Macro pagkatapos mag supervise ng pag-gro-grocery para sa grocery pack ng mga empleyado. Habang papalabas ng office dumating ang isang text message na galing kay Andrew, "Momi, nauntog daw kanina sa basketball si Ton-ton, di parin siya nagigising. Pupuntahan ko na si Tito Edgar tapos sabay na kami puntang ospital." Nang tanungin ko siya kung bakit anung nangyari, sabi niya basta dumeretso na ako ng ospital. Tila siryoso ito, matawagan nga...

Bobbie: Hello, ano daw nangyari?
Andrew: (nanginginig ang boses) Nauntog daw e...
Bobbie: Paano? Anung oras pa nangyari?
Andrew: Mga 6:00 daw.
*Napaisip ako sandali, 6:00 pa eh 8:00 na tulog parin?! Naguumpisa na akong kabahan...
Bobbie: Asa ospital ka na?
Andrew: Oo!
*tahimik ng sandali...
Andrew: (umiiyak na) Mami, punta ka na dito... si Ton-ton... pumunta ka na dito!
Bobbie: (umiiyak na din) Oo sige papunta na ako pero paalis palang ako ng office, pero dederetso na ako dyan. Sige!
Andrew: Bilisan mo ha! Mag ingat ka!
Bobbie: Oo sige, babay!

Parang kagabi lang masaya pa kaming nasa party at kaninang madaling araw lang magkakasama pa kami nila Droo at P sa bahay, tamang usap... Ngayon hindi na siya nakakausap... Hindi ako makapaniwala sa nakita kong kalagayan ni Ton-ton, malala nga ang lagay niya... Parang hindi totoo, sa sinasabi ng Doctor parang alam ko na kung anung kahihinatnat nito pero umaasa parin akong hindi tama ang naiisip ko. Parang masamang panaginip, sana panaginip lang ito...

Lord tulong naman! Mahal na mahal ko/namin si Ton-ton at alam mo yan... Gusto ko/namin gumising pa siya. Di pa siya pwedeng matulog Lord diba kasi di pa niya kine-claim ang key niya to heaven?! Haaay ang haba nitong araw na ito, toxic sa office tapos ganito pa... Hay, ayoko na ata talaga!

RAKETEER'S CHRISTMAS PARTY

2005-12-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

The Banquet's Christmas Party! Weee! Nanalo ko ng Plantsa! (Tama ba seplling ko? Hehe!) Basta yun, pero palit daw kami ni Ton-ton kasi mas gusto ko yung Cordless Kettle niya. Haha! Thanks Mami!

BERTDEY

2005-11-29T16:20:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be celebrating today.
But no! I'm too busy to treat myself.
I'm too sad to celebrate.
Haaay, what a birthday...
I think i'LL have to rest tomorrow...

KABUANAN

2005-10-05T12:23:00.000+08:00

One month na ako sa work, wow! Astig, infairness kinakaya ko pa naman ewan ko nga lang kung hanggang kailan ko pa kakayanin. Sana kayanin ko kasi hindi pa accomplished ang mission ko. Haaay, Lord help!

REALITY DAW

2005-09-27T04:32:00.000+08:00

They ordered one bilao of Pansit Malabon but i was the one who paid for it, why?! Cause i had no choice, yun daw ang "tradisyon" kapag unang sweldo. Everyone was happy except me. Why?! Kasi ang balak ko sila Mama muna ang unang gagastosan ko ng unang sweldo ko... haaay! Hindi ko na tuloy sila trineat outside kasi sira na araw ko...yes let it go, i know, nakain naman na din namin. I just dont like it na mas binibigyang halaga ang "tradisyon" kesa sa "respeto". Oh well, what do i expect in the secular world, kanya kanyang kuha ng plate & cups (yes! kahit na kakain lahat ang pagkuha ng plates sa pantry ay kanya kanya parin), kanya kanyang serve, hinahayaan lang na nakikita ng boss at hindi manalng siya bigyan o kahit alukin manlang, and what i hate the most... guys first?! Culture shock itoh!!! Then sasabihin nila "this is reality"?! This is not reality, it cant be! Ang Rotaract & APA ay "reality" din pero hindi ganito! Kalokohan!

Sad that most people live their whole lifes in a place like this which they call "reality". Sana kahit minsan lang maexperience nila ang "life".

NADAPANG BATA

2005-09-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

On my way to the office today ay nakabangga ang jeep na sinasakyan ko bandang Manila Pen... la pa akong money dahil di pa ako sumusweldo so naka budget talaga ang pamasahe, for that i had no other choice but to walk the rest of my way to the office. Sakto lang ang travel time kapag naka jeep, dadating ako sa office ng 8:30 impunto, eh kaso nga lakad galore nanaman ako today so malamang malalate ako at ayoko sanang malate kaya hala, sige bilisan ang lakad! Kakamadali hindi ko napansin na ubos na pala ang sidewalk na nilalakaran ko at mas mababa na pala ang ground ng susunod na tatapakan ko... ayun dahil hindi pantay ay natapilok ako at natumba...Yes! Natumba as in para akong nagpapaint sa floor, ganun ka plakda. Maraming tao na nakakita?! Yes! Madami as in more than 15 siguro dahil madaming naglalakad...you know naman Makati.

Sad lang na sa dami ng tao, nobody bothered to help. Parang nakarelate tuloy ako sa feeling nung man going down from Jerusalem to Jeriecho sa The Parable of the Good Samaritan. Ang pinagkaiba lang namin ay nadapa lang ako at may good samaritan na tumulong sakanya. Hay, madami pa nga talagang kailangang gawin mga kapatid.

Pagdating ko dito sa office tinatanung ko si Lord, batok po ba yun?! Para saan?! Counted pa ba yung usapan natin dati?! Or may pinapakita ka lang?! Masakit ah! Hindi kasing sakit nung dati pero masakit din...

Tinatawanan nila ako dito sa office na ang laki-laki ko na nadadapa pa ako. Kulang daw ako sa vitamins, sabi ko kulang lang ako sa balot...hehe! Tapos babarahin pa ako ni Mama ng, akala ko ba ako lang ang nadadapa?! Masakit parin tuhod ko, malamang bukas may pasa ito... may onting galos ako sa kamay ko malamang dahil sa biglang pag tukod ko sa pagbagsak, di tuloy ako makapag type at makapagsulat ng maayos. Haaay, di pala lahat ng lampa at yatot... ='P

IBANG KLASENG ASSISTANT NAMAN...

2005-09-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

Something they see in me...
Something they feel about me...
Something they think that i can be...

San ba galing ang "something" at hindi ko nakikita pero nasakin?! Hmmmn...

Kinausap ako ni Madam President Helen of Troy this morning, she's offering me a new position. I got her point, kung bat mas ok yun and mas gusto ko ang position na yun kaso more pressure kasi shemps mas mataas na & parang masyado pang maaga para lumipat ako, haaa...wala pa akong isang buwan, ni hindi pa nga ako regular e. Magdadalawang linggo palang ako eh ito na ang bulung bulungan at inakala kong bulung bulungan nga lang talga siya but no totoo pala...natatakot nanaman ba ako dahil bigger ang responsibility?! Whats wrong with me?!!

Lord test ba to?! Tama bang infairness eh iba naman ang level nito, so does that mean i passed the first one?!

You asked me how much am i willing to learn... You confirmed that i'm in the right track kahit na alangan ang feeling ko and sinabi Mo din na i'll be happy. Pero nga conditional ang plan Mo diba?! Lord, ayokong maging parang si Moses. That though you said na ibibigay mo ang promise land sakanya because he wasn't obedient enough e from a distance nalang niya nakita ng promise land... Ayokong masayang lang lahat dahil natatakot ako... Haaaa Lord, Yes! I know... and pabaon mo bago ako umalis ng comfort zone ko... be strong ang courageous. So I ask for a strong and courageous heart dear Father...

I need prayer pips...

WHAT KATRINA CAN TEACH US, BY: MAX LUCADO

2005-09-14T12:16:00.000+08:00

What Katrina Can Teach Us?
by Max Lucado

Who would have thought we would ever hear this phrase spoken on a radio news report in America: "Today, about 25,000 refugees were moved from the Superdome in New Orleans to the Astrodome in Houston. For days, we’ve watched the tragedy continue to unfold in Mississippi and Louisiana and, if you are like me, you’ve wrestled with feelings of shock and disbelief feelings that, over the last five years, have become all too familiar. We were barely into the new millennium when we saw towers falling in New York City and planes crashing into the Pentagon and the Pennsylvania farmland. We saw bombs over Baghdad and witnessed the ancient land of Abraham become a war zone for his ancestors. You’d think we had seen enough, but then came the tsunami–a roaring wave that sucked life and innocence out to sea. And now the fruits of Katrina. A city sitting in twenty feet of water. Citizens hacking their way onto roofs and helicopters hovering over neighborhoods. Optimistic rescuers, opportunistic looters, grateful people, resentful people–we have seen it all. And many have seen it up close. Katrina came to San Antonio in the form of 12,500 evacuees. Many of you are meeting them, feeding them, writing checks, and manning shifts. And you, as much as any, have reason to wonder. What is going on here? 9/11, Iraq, tsunami, Katrina. And I didn’t mention nor intend to minimize hurricanes Dennis and Ivan and Emily.

Jesus criticized the leaders of his day for focusing on the weather and ignoring the signals: "You find it easy enough to forecast the weather–why can’t you read the signs of the times?" Matthew 16:2-3 (MSG). What are we to learn from all of this? Is God sending us a message? I think so. And, I think we’d be wise to pay attention. There are some spiritual lessons that I think God would want us to learn through this tragedy. The first lesson we see is.

I. The Nature of Possessions:
Temporary As you’ve listened to evacuees and survivors, have you noticed their words? No one laments a lost plasma television or submerged SUV. No one runs through the streets yelling, "My cordless drill is missing" or "My golf clubs have washed away." If they mourn, it is for people lost. If they rejoice, it is for people found. Could Jesus be reminding us that people matter more than possessions? In a land where we have more malls than high schools, more debt than credit, more clothes to wear than we can wear, could Christ be saying: Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man’s life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions" (Luke 12:15)? We see an entire riverboat casino washed up three blocks and placed on top of a house in a neighborhood. You see demolished $40,000 cars that will never be driven again, hidden in debris. And in the background of our minds we hear the quiet echoes of Jesus saying, "What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?" (Matthew 16:26). Raging hurricanes and broken levees have a way of prying our fingers off the stuff we love. What was once most precious now means little; what we once ignored is now of eternal significance.

A friend and I attended a worship service at Antioch Baptist Church last Sunday night. Several African American Church leaders had organized an assembly to pray for the evacuees that have ended up in San Antonio. Many of them sat on the front rows.dressed in all the clothing they owned: t-shirts, jeans. Their face were weary from the week. But when the music started and the worship began, they came to their feet and sang with tears in their eyes.

They were rich. Are you that rich? Were all your possession washed away, could you still worship? Would you still worship? If not, you are holding things too tightly: "Tell those rich in this world’s wealth to quit being so full of themselves and so obsessed with money, which is here today and gone tomorrow. Tell them to go after God, who piles on all the riches we could ever manage–to do good, to be rich in helping others, to be extravagantly generous. If they do that, they’ll build a treasury that will last, gaining life that is truly life" (1 Timothy 6:17-19 MSG). Through Katrina, Christ tells us: stuff doesn’t matter; people do. Understand the nature of possessions. Be equally clear on:

II. The Nature of People:
Sinners and Saints. We see the most incredible servants and stories of selflessness and sacrifice. We see people of the projects rescuing their neighbors, we see civil servants risking their lives for people they’ve never seen. My wife Denalyn and I toured a shelter supervised by one of our neighbors here in San Antonio. We met a family of some twenty cousins and siblings. One six-year-old girl told Denalyn about the helicopter man who plucked her off a third story porch and lifted her to safety. That child will never know who that man is. He’ll never seek any applause. He saved her life. all in a day’s work. We saw humanity at its best. And we saw humanity at its worst.

Looting. Fighting. We heard stories of rapes and robberies. Someone said, "The heavens declare the glory of God but the streets declare the sinfulness of man." The video footage in New Orleans has confirmed the truthfulness of that quote. Can you imagine not being able to sleep in the Superdome for fear that someone might try to rape your daughter if she went to the restroom in the middle of the night? We are people of both dignity and depravity. The hurricane blew back more than roofs; it blew the mask off the nature of mankind. The main problem in the world is not Mother Nature, but human nature. Strip away the police barricades, blow down the fences, and the real self is revealed. We are barbaric to the core.

We were born with a me-first mentality. You don’t have to teach your kids to argue. They don’t have to be trained to demand their way. You don’t have to show them how to stomp their feet and pout, it is their nature. indeed it is all of our nature to do so. "All of us have strayed like sheep. We have left God’s paths to follow our own" (Isaiah 53:6). God’s chosen word for our fallen condition has three letters- s-I-n. Sin celebrates the letter in the middle. "I". Left to our own devices, we lead a godless, out of control life of ".doing what we felt like doing, when we felt like doing it" (Ephesians 2:3 MSG).

You don’t have to go to New Orleans to see the chaos. Because of sin, the husband ignores his wife, grown men seduce the young. The young proposition the old. When you do what you want and I do what I want, humanity and civility implodes. And when the Katrinas of life blown in, our true nature is revealed and our deepest need is unveiled: a need deeper than food, more permanent than firm levees. We need, not a new system, but a new nature. We need to be changed from the inside out. Which takes us to the third message of Katrina:

III. The Nature of God’s Grace:
Inside Out Much discussion revolves around the future of New Orleans. Will the city be restored? Repaired? How long will it take? Who will pay for it? One thing is for certain: someone has to clean her up. No one is suggesting otherwise. Everyone knows, someone has to go in a clean up the mess. That is what God offers to do with us. He comes into sin-flooded lives and washes away the old. Paul reflected on his conversion and he wrote: "He gave us a good bath, and we came out of it new people, washed inside and out by the Holy Spirit" (Titus 3:5). Our sins stand no chance against the fire hoses of God’s grace. But he does more than cleanse us; he rebuilds us. In the form of his Holy Spirit, God moves in and starts a complete renovation project. "God can do anything, you know–far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us." (Ephesians 3:20 MSG). And what we can only dream of doing with New Orleans, God has done with soul after soul, and he will do so with you, if you let him. The most disturbing stories from the last week are of those who refused to be rescued. Those who spent their final hours trapped in attics and rooms regretting the choice they’d made. They could have been saved. They could have gotten out. but they chose to stay. Many paid a permanent price. You don’t have to pay that price. What rescuers did for people on the Gulf Coast, God will do for you. He has entered your world. He has dropped a rope into your sin-swamped life. He will rescue, you simply need to do what that little girl did, let him lift you out.

I mentioned my visit to Antioch Baptist Church last Sunday night. A local minister, Pastor L. A. Williams gave a message on this one verse: "But Noah found grace in the eyes of the Lord." (Gen. 6:8). The minister helped us see all the things Noah could not find because of the flood. He could not find his neighborhood. He could not find his house. He could not find the comforts of home or the people down the street–there was much he could not find. But what he could find made all the difference. Noah found grace in the eyes of the Lord. Noah found grace in the eyes of God. IF YOU HAVE EVERYTHING AND NO GRACE, YOU HAVE NOTHING. IF YOU HAVE NOTHING BUT GRACE, YOU HAVE EVERYTHING. HAVE YOU FOUND GRACE? If not, I urge you to do what that little girl told us she did. When the rescuer appeared on her porch, she GRABBED HIM, CLOSED HER EYES, AND HELD ON. THAT'S ALL YOU NEED TO DO. And if you never have, and would like to, I URGE YOU TO REACH FOR THE HAND OF YOUR RESCUER, JESUS CHRIST. Your Redeemer lives, too. This hurricane was his tool to get your attention. TRUST IN HIM WHILE YOU STILL CAN.

Max Lucado, @ 2005 This entry was posted on Saturday, September 10th, 2005 at 8:50 pm.

SHOP

2005-09-02T11:31:00.000+08:00

Hmmmn... last day ko na today dito sa shop... babay na comfort zone!
Hay, more than 1 year din ako dito... madami din akong mga unforgettable moments, may mga petiks (hmmmn...), nakakabagot (haaaay), nakakatawa (haha), nakakakilig (hehe), nakakapikon (errr), ect. Mamimiss ko ang streaming, YM...ang unlimited access ko sa internet. Hehe! Sana kahit manlang YM meron sa opis... ='P

Haaaaa!!! Excited na ako to start "work"ing pero kinakabahan talaga ako... deadline na dapat maubos ang kaba ko ay sa sunday para super ready na ako sa monday. Pero confident naman ako na itll be fine pero bat ganun may kaba parin?! Is it all in my mind, hmmmn... Lord please give me peace!

OUT HERE - IN THERE

2005-08-26T10:16:00.000+08:00

OUT! I'm now stepping out of my comfort zone. Ito pala yung sinasabi Niya, dito pala ako nireready. As usual nung una hindi ko maintindihan kung para saanang mga paulit ulit na ipinapaalala sakin. Isasabak na pala ako sa battlefield. Grounded nga ba ako?! I'm not sure if I'm really ready for this but His timing is perfect and He called me for this so malamang time na nga. Di narin naman ako baby, isang taon mahigit na din akong Kristiyano ayoko naman maging "Bonjing"! Honestly, wala pa kong gameplan for this battle, ang dami kong "what if's" sa mind. My fear/s? Ewan! Basta kinakabahan ako pero ang sabi "Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1:9) Hmmmn... pwede bang mag ocular lang muna & mag observe sa battlefield Lord then saka ako gagawa ng gameplan ko?! I hope to pass every test, I hope to win every challenge, I would want to at least make You smile. IN! I finally accepted Pentathlon's offer as a Marketing Assistant, a professional term for "utusan"... ok lang kasi "servant" naman talaga ako. I hope to deliver what's expected of me (or more kaya parang mas ok yata yun) and I hope to fulfill His purpose for me there. Haaaay I'm excited yet nervous but above all I feel blessed. I'll be starting next week and I should be ready, I will so I'll ask. Daming fruits Lord nakakainspire naman... please tech me how to get all of them.

Oi enemy! Alam ko nababasa mo to tas eepal ka nanaman sa picture, pabida effect as usual. Umayos ka, malakas backer ko...pipitikers ka namin. Haha!

DA WHO?!

2005-08-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

Da who ang talikogenic (daw sabi ko, blog ko toh la ng kokontra! Ako lang pwedeng pumili ag bida dito) na ito?! Haha! Yebah! That's me! ='D Pagupit ako kanina... La lang, new look effect lang nagsawa na kasi ko sa long hair kong pasaway. Kaya yan, hmpf! Ayaw kasing makisama, for that... gupit! Pero aktali ang sabi ko shoulder level, ewan ko ba kung bakit ganyan kaiksi, wala ba kong leeg?! Hmmmn...

PALpak

2005-08-23T10:23:00.000+08:00

Ang layo ng PAL Placement! Grabe, dulo dulo... imagine from Tandang Sora to Pasay?! Grabe na itetch! Buti nalang may MRT at kung hindi malamang 10yrs bago ko nakarating doon, at hindi lang malamang ngarag na ko pagdating doon.

Sinamahan ako ni Papang (Thanks Pang!) para hindi ako mahirapan maghanap (kasi hindi naman ako Manila Girl, QC girl kasi ako,hehe!). 8:30 ang sinabing time and dumating ako ng 8:25, just in time para makahinga pa ko ng mabuti bago magstart ang interview.

"Impact Interview" ang tawag nila doon sa klase ng interview na ginawa samin kasi daw titignan kung ano daw ang impact samin ng nagsasalita sa maraming tao. Mala first day of class effect, na say something about yourself na shemps yung hindi nakalagay sa resume then lalakad ka papunta sa interviewer ito naman ang rampa effect kasi pati lakad eh tinitigan then saka ka na tatanungin ng kung ano man ang trip nila itanung nila sayo. Then pag tapos na lahat isa isa kayong tatawagin at aabutan ng papel na kung saan nakalagay ang verdict if youre in or out.

Out of 12 (6 boys & 6 girls) eh 1 lang ang nakuha samin. Shempre rant rant ang drama ng iba habang papalabas, ako naman ok lang kasi mej alam ko na kung ano...hehe! Gugutom na kasi ako so nagmamadali na din ako umalis para makapunta na ko sa office ni Mama at makakain kasi sabi ko sabay kami. Tsaka nakapagusap naman kami ni Lord na cocomfort niya ko agad kasi ayoko na sasama loob ko pag di ako nakuha, so yun ayus lang kahit PALpak...hehe!

DIE BOBBIE! DIE...

2005-08-19T09:11:00.000+08:00

10am - Pentathlon Asia
My first interview went well, i got the position pero hindi ko pa tinatanggap. Its an IT company kasi, eh nenung ko sa IT... ala naman akong ka-ayja ayja sa IT kahit na ba documentation palang, nenung ko sa terms ng mga IT chuvaness pag nag report ako. Hay, natatakot lang ba ako?! ='S

2:30pm - C-Gull Teleservices
Final interview na (supposedly). Ayon sa mga nag evaluate sakin ay ok naman daw ang diction, ok naman daw ang fluency, at ang voice quality kaso nga lang... kulang daw sa confidence. Yun lang naman daw ang naging problema kaso kasi malaking factor daw yun. So ang naging tanung ay "Saan ba galing yung lack of confidence? Can we do something about it? Sige, do you want to say something?" Pwede bang sumagot ng, "Yes Sir, something!"? Hay eh di sinabi ko ang totoo na first time ko kasi at andito ako sa shop nun at nagtratrabaho kaya makakailang. So ulitin daw ang survey sa 25 para ma check kung kaya kong i-improve. Hmmmn... hanggang sa boses pala nalalaman na hindi ako confident. Hanu vah?! Aaaah, san ko ba nakuha tong sakit na toh?! ='(

May isa pa kong interview sa monday. Sa PAL naman, yun walang dudang related sa course ko pero... frontline position?! Kinda vague ang description. Frontline?! Eh wala nga akong experience pa na related sa tourism. Hmmmn, sana lang nabasa nilang mabuti ang resume ko.

Sa tinagal tagal ng panahon na nagpasa pasa ako ng resume sa kung saan-saan ngayon palang nagyaring may tumawag sakin kaya windang na halos sabay sabay pa sila. Answered prayer infairness! Thank You Lord! At first exciting kasi C-Gull palang so hindi mahirap pumili kaso nung dumagdag ang Pentathlon Asia naging debate na, ngayong dadagdag pa ang PAL stress na itoh! 3 choices at lahat galing kay Lord so its a choice between good, better, or best. If i wont make it sa PAL eh better or best nalang. Ano nga kaya?! Ano bang gusto ko? Alin ba ang dapat?!

Sabi nga na pag debate na between your will or God's will eitherway someone has to die and eitherway eh ako yun. If I choose to follow my will, in the end talo ako kasi hindi ko napili ang God's best for me. If I choose to follow God's will eh i have to sacrifice what i want, in short: die to self.

Hindi ko alam kung ang mapapasukan kong trabaho ay panghabambuhay na, pero ang alam ko malaking factor ito sa magiging buhay ko in the future. I want what's best for me kahit na mahirap basta yung sa huli hindi ako talo. Die Bobbie! Die...

Friends pagpray nyo naman ako. Lord, discernment po...

EXPECTANT HEART

2005-08-10T11:49:00.001+08:00

Retreat's Main Text: Luke 5: 17-26

Jesus Heals a Paralytic

¹⁷One day as he was teaching, Pharisees and teachers of the law, who had come from every village of Galilee and from Judea and Jerusalem, were sitting there. And the power of the Lord was present for him to heal the sick. ¹⁸Some men came carrying a paralytic on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus. ¹⁹When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus.

²⁰When Jesus saw their faith, he said, "Friend, your sins are forgiven."

²¹The Pharisees and the teachers of the law began thinking to themselves, "Who is this fellow who speaks blasphemy? Who can forgive sins but God alone?"

²²Jesus knew what they were thinking and asked, "Why are you thinking these things in your hearts? ²³Which is easier: to say, 'Your sins are forgiven,' or to say, 'Get up and walk'? ²⁴But that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins...." He said to the paralyzed man, "I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home." ²⁵Immediately he stood up in front of them, took what he had been lying on and went home praising God. ²⁶Everyone was amazed and gave praise to God. They were filled with awe and said, "We have seen remarkable things today."

Session 1 (Why are you here?) akala ko nakarelate lang ako sa friends of the paralytic kasi same na we went to Jesus with an expectant heart pero during the Cell Group Devotion#1 feeling ko combination na ako ng friends & crowd kasi nasa retreat din pala ako to make usi ang difference lang eh hindi ako passive sa pag-uusi ko kung anung gimik ni Lord. Nung Session 2 (You and your faith) narealize kong may something sa faith kong kailangang maayos then nung Session 3 (What Jesus did) narealize ko na in a way eh paralytic din pala ako dahil nga may mali sa faith ko and kailangan ma-heal yun.

So recharged from the retreat I can say that I'm still in an emotional high right now. I went with an expectant heart @ akala ko sobra yung inexpect ko pero I got more than what I was expecting, I got not just what i wanted but also what I needed. Hindi lang ako na-heal na-forgive pa ako. Never talagang sakto lang yung binibigay ni Lord laging more than enough, hay super galante talaga bast amag trust ka and willing ka na mag claim. Astig, He never fails to amaze me!

For Christians earth is just a temporary place to live in, this isn't our "home". So ano palang reli ng araw-araw na ibinubuhay namin dito?! Kasi every day is a journey home to heaven kaya we have to live each day para makarating kami sa aming "home". Pero hindi pwedeng ganun lang na gigising at gagawa ng kung anu-ano hanggang matapos ang araw. Dapat like what the pralytic did when he received healing and forgiveness we should go home praising God too. We should live each day doing something that glorifies Him. Easy for me to say kasi "high" pa ako?! Kung i-see-seek naman talaga natin ang face Niya, kung kukulitin natin si Lord to reveal to us kahit one Kingdom Secret a day, and if we wake up every morning na may something na gagawin or ipapagawa si Lord satin, hindi ba exciting yun?! All we need is that thing called FAITH plus that PASSION for HIM... Yes it is not that easy but knowing that God is there to back me up eh why not chocknut?! So what now?! Eh di may bago kong commitment dahil hindi na ako paralytic, magiging friend of the paralytic na ako. Because i'm healed, i'll bring paralytic friends (shemps hindi yung literal diba?!) to Jesus for healing and to be forgiven.

IM SO EXCITED & I JUST CANT FIGHT IT

2005-08-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

RETREAT NA BUKAS...WEEEEE!!! Super excited ako, ewan ko kung bakit pero hindi talaga ito normal sakin. Naka ilang retreats na din ako since naging christian ako and never pa akong naka feel ng ganitong excitement. Ewan, iba talaga to hmmmn... ano bang gimik natin Lord, wazzup ba?! Hehe! Ano kayang hanppenings @ ganito nalang ako ka-excited?!

ATTENTION!!! Youth leaders: Cux, Tiara & Aldrin & UPCYM ExeCom: Carla, Salvs, Earla, Dimps & Ace (may nakalimutan pa ba ko?), hallur!!! Pressure!!! Pressure kayo dyan!!! Haha! Friends tayo ha?! ='D Gandahan nyo ha?! Yung tipong sa sobrang ganda ayoko ng maging participant next retreat dapat ma-inspire ako na gugustuhin ko na din mag lead sa susunod. Ha?! (Grabe ma-mressure hehe!) ='P.

Basta, ito tunay na im coming with an expectant heart. I hope everyones as excited as i am. Lord!!! Lets go! I can't wait to see na kung anung gagawin mo... nahi-hyper ako (ADHD?!). Haaay, prepare our hearts Lord...

(CHARLIES ANGELS: FULL THROTTLE)

2005-08-03T12:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes were too busy looking for something thats right in front of us...

sometimes im guilty of this...

( 08-01-05, 11:00pm, @ home, HBO)

(IF ONLY)

2005-08-01T11:06:00.000+08:00

DEATH DOESN'T PUT AN END TO LOVE...

so true, sobrang nakarelate ako...

(07-30-05 / 9:30pm / with Tot / SM North Edsa / Cinema 2)

A NEW FRIEND

2005-07-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

Cute noh?! Meet my new friend GUINEA. Half dog half guinea pig siya, LoLz mukha kasi siyang guinea pig kaya yan ang name na binigay ko sakanya. He looks lonely noh?! May sakit kasi siya, di siya makawiwi ng maayos kasi swollen yung genitalia niya... Wawa naman noh?! ='(

GOODBYE c2 HELLO the ONE

2005-07-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

Ayoko na ng c2, nanawa na ako sa flavors nila. May bago na kong fave drink...Oo na pasaway na ko, bawal nga ang tea e... E masarap e! Hehe! Try niyo to, masarap siya promise! Manufactured by Zesto Corp. ;D

TO BESSY & BUM FROM BOBBIE

2005-07-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

Miss kita Bessy!
Sine... nachos mo, pizza ko. Retreats. Sumbungan. Bonding-an.

Miss kita Bum!
Kambalism! Mga tampuhan. Summer camps. DVCS. Crush-crushan.

Ang buhay nga naman minsan hindi mo matancha. Magugulat ka nalang, mag isa ka nalang pala. Akala ko noon walang magbabago, parang hindi mangyayaring maghiwa hiwalay kaming tatlo. Alaala nalang ang lahat ngayon, ganun man lahat ay nakatanim sa puso ko. Itinanim ko, at habambuhay kong itatago dahil masarap balik balikan ng aming nakaraan, masayang alalahanin ang pinagsamahan, mga hirap na pinagdaanan at nagpatibay ng aming pagkakaibigan. Sana maulit pa… sana makapag kita-kita pa… sana magka sama-sama pa… sana kahit marami ng nagbago... kahit matagal na kamiy nagkalayo.. sana sa muli naming pagkikitay magkakakilala parin ang aming mga puso...

FRIENDS
(to hear the song: click on the TITLE, then click PLAY NOW...Enjoy!)

Packing up the dreams of God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Chorus
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hand we know
That a lifetime's not too long
to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
And we will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

No a lifetimes not to long,to live as friends

Malamang naaalala nyo tong song na to... Junior Choir?! Mga cute pa tayo nun... Haaaaaay miss you guys sooooooo much!!!

WORDS

2005-07-11T09:27:00.000+08:00

Got this through email, as usual...share ko lang para pangulit, enjoy! ='D

Forget traditional dictionaries. Keep this list:

1. Achuchu (A-chu-chu).
This refers to the pointless insincerities being said during long, involved conversations about nothing at all.

2. Ano (A-noh)
The all-around, all-purpose word for everything.
(1) Pronoun in interrogation: Ano? (What)
(2) Noun: Where is your ano? (Where is your father/mother/dead-uncle's-second-cousin)
(3) Verb: Anuhin this. (Paint/kill/maim/castrate this.)
(4) Adjective: This is so ano. (This is so pretty/big/astounding.)
(5) Interjection: Ano! (What the hell!)
(6) Substitute for genitalia: Did you ano your ano?

The use of ano is quite dangerous for the untrained ear, and must be put into the proper setting.

"Honey, the ano is too long, we have to cut it," must be accompanied by the proper understanding of the context, as results maybe critical to a couple's future.

3. Booba (boo-bah).
A female blessed with larger than usual mammary glands, which can be used as weapons of mass destruction.

4. Checheboreche (Che-che-boh-re-che)
Same as achuchu. It is interesting to ponder on the reason why there are so many words in the Filipino language that beautifully describe meaningless chatter.

5. Epal (Eh-pal).
An individual who believes he is God.

6. Gigil (gee-gil).
An uncontrollable desire to bite something.

7. Hipon (Hee-pon).
Literally "shrimp," whose body is eaten while its head is thrown away, this refers to a female whose body is to die for and whose face looks like it belongs to the dead.

8. Kikay (kee-kay).
Refers to individuals who carry a brush, hand wash, moisturizer, lip-gloss and various other facial enhancements in a case (aptly called a kikay kit) inside her bag. Recent inspections of various backpacks have led to the conclusion it is not a purely female trait. This breed cannot resist checking themselves out on mirrors, glass windows, bread knives, sidewalk puddles and plastic-covered notebooks.

9. Kaekekan (Ka-ek-e-kahn)
Same as achuchu and chechebureche.

10. Kilig (keel-leg).
A rush of excitement due to the actions, presence or even mention of he whom you see as the future father of your children.

11. Laglag-brip (lag-lag-brip).
The female counterpart of laglag-panti

12. Laglag-panti (lag-lag-pan-tee).
A man so incredibly hot, so heart-stoppingly gorgeous and oozing with masculinity that female underwear (whether worn by males or females) falls to the ground without effort whatsoever.

13. Indyanero (In-jan-neh-ro).
An individual who fails to appear at an appointment without prior warning. Not to be confused with individuals who appear according to Filipino time (approximately 10 minutes before the meeting is to end)

14. Japorms (Jah-porms).
Describes an individual dressed differently from the usual (typically involves clothes
that have been laundered and pant legs of roughly the same length).

15. Lagot (Lah-got)
A prophesy of evil things to come.

16. Para (Pah-rah).
A term that informs the driver of a jeep to stop and pause (usually in the middle of the road) as the individual speaking intends to leave the vehicle. Dangerous for individuals as drivers seem to believe having one foot in the air is all that is necessary for descent.

17. Takusa (Ta-kuh-sa).
Derived from takot sa asawa (afraid of wife), this is a used to describe the silent (very silent) minority of males married to feminine reincarnations of Hitler.

18. Torpe (tore-peh).
A gentleman who is desperately attracted to a female yet by some strange compulsion is reduced to a frozen mound of stuttering male whenever that female is near.

***

Armed with this list and a smile, you will be sure to make the proper impression not just on your new relations, but on your loved one as well. Now let's practice:

"Honey, when I first saw you, I made laglag brip, and was almost torpe. When I finally got the nerve to date you, I almost became indyanero, because I didn't think I had the right japorms.

When you're around, I'm kilig, when you're not, I get gigil. You may think all this is achuchu, kaekekan, just chechecoreche, but in truth, my love, I'm so ano with you."

MY HEALTHY TUMMY

2005-06-27T10:07:00.000+08:00

Oh diba botchog na botchog?! Pwede na nga ata ako sa commercial ng mga buntis e. Sabi nga ni Han, B for Botchog na daw hindi na B for Bobbbie...hehe! ='P

PRESIDETS

2005-06-22T18:37:00.000+08:00

*ERAP @ a shop
Sales Lady: Good morning Sir!
Erap: Good morning, pabili nga ng ballpen.
Sales Lady: Ay sorry sir hindi po kami nagtitinda ng ballpen dito.
Erap: Ano?! Wala kayong ballpen?! Penshoppe tapos wala naman pala kayong ballpen!

**GLORIA & a reporter
Reporter: Madam, bakit po hindi na kayo tumangkad?
Gloria: Eh kasi maaga akong naulila.
Reporter: Ano naman po ang kuneksyon nun?!
Gloria: Naturalmente walang nagpalaki sakin!

***CORY in an interview
Inteviewer: Mam, kung buhay pa po si Ninoy ngayon, presidente rin kaya siya?!
Cory: Bilanggo siguro.
Interviewer: Bilanggo po?!
Cory: Oo.
Interviewer: Bakit naman po bilanggo?
Cory: Baka napatay na niya si Kris.

Joke time...Take your pick, ako fave ko yung kay Cory. Hehe!

BOTCHOG

2005-06-20T16:43:00.000+08:00

Nights of dining out ~*burp*~ dinner buffets ~*burp*~. Mornings of having “cancer breakfast” (sad to say but i love it) ~*burp*~ and complimentary breakfasts (aha that means buffet breakfast) ~*burp*~. Yes, I love to eat…I know! Haaay is so hard to say no pag masarap ang food. Discipline!!! But no, im doing the “SEEfood diet” again. Tuloy, I feel so heavy lately, bakit kaya?! Haha! Feel? In denial?! LoLz! Ang healthy healthy na ng tummy ko, hmmmn... healthy pa nga bang maitatawag o abuso na sa katawan ang gingawa ko?! Oh well, malapit na din naman matapos… papayat na ulit ako next month, hehe papayat?! Nagiilusyon nanaman ako! =’P La na ganito na ata ko for life, botchog! ='D

WHAT DOES LOVE MEAN?

2005-06-13T17:07:00.000+08:00

Touching words from the mouth of babes…

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
*Rebecca- age 8
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"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
*Billy - age 4
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"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
*Karl - age 5
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"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
*Chrissy - age 6
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"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
*Terri - age 4
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"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
*Danny - age 7
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"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"
*Emily - age 8
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"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
*Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
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"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"
*Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
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"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
*Noelle - age 7
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"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
*Tommy - age 6
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"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
*He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
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"My mommy loves me more than anybody .
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
*Clare - age 6
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"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
*Elaine-age 5
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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
*Chris - age 7
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"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
*Mary Ann - age 4
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"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
*Lauren - age 4
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"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)
*Karen - age 7
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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
*Mark - age 6
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"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
*Jessica - age 8
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And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.

The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
"Nothing, I just helped him cry"

Ang cute noh?! La lang tamang share, ikaw din share kahit di ka baby…hehe! Whats love for you? =’D

SHOP's 1st YEAR ANNIV!

2005-06-12T15:15:00.000+08:00

Lafang to the max @ Kamayan
June 11, 2005

…Sama Sama Together…

KilikiliErnie

Halo-halo: Barbs, Ate Lean & Kuya Ernie

Yuck Mekol

Amazed Baxx

Kuhol Pa?!

Dessert Ko

Yuck Baxx!

MISS KO SIYA...

2005-06-06T16:49:00.000+08:00

Sinalubong ko si Mamang (Lola ko) nung sabado, pagkaraan ng dalawang taon muli nanaman kaming nagkita. Natuwa ako kasi makakasama ko siya ng halos isang buwan. Pero halos maiyak ako nung makita ko siyang nakaupo sa wheelchair habang palabas ng arrival area. Dati kasi hindi siya nag whee-wheelchair dahil kaya parin naman niyang lumakad basta may aalalay sakanyan, kaya lang ngayon magisa nalang siya. Wala na si Daddy na aalalay sakanya tuwing umuuwi sila.

Namimiss ko si Daddy at alam kong hindi magtatagal ay si Mamang din ay mamimiss ko ng ganito. Minsan tuloy ayokong makipagusap sakanya, ayoko ng mapalapit… para saan pat iiwan din naman niya ako?! Masasaktan ulit ako… pero kahit naman anung gawin ko sa ganung paraan naman talaga natatapos ang istorya ng buhay ng bawat tao. Pag tumanda tanda pa ako susunod din ang mga magulang ko, mga kamag anak, kaibigan at mga kakilala. Ako man… lilisanin din ang mundong ito at tutungo sa pangakong paraiso. Doon makikita ko ulit sila, kaya lang hindi ko na sila makikilala.

Nalulungkot parin ako pag naaalala kong wala na siya. Madalas naiiyak pa kapag naaalala ko ang noon, ang mga pangyayari, ang mga lugar, ang mga bagay at tuwing lumalabas ang mga katangiang namana ko sakanya.

Naiisip ko lang minsan na sana pwedeng sumilip sa langit, mapagmasdan manlang siya kahit sandali. Makita kung gaano siya kasaya sa piling ng Ama.

HANNIYAH!

2005-06-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

Han!!! Galit ka?! Di ka pa nagtetext sakin today... kung san san ka na napadpad, kung anu-ano nang nangyari sayo, umuwi ka na! Asan ka na ba?! Naiinis tuloy ako sayo! Hmmmn... di mo pa nakikita pictures ko, dapat may pictures ka din kasi mas matagal ang tour mo. Ingatz!

IF I NEVER GET TO HEAVEN

2005-06-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

i heard this song the other night sa wave. La lang share ko lang, its nice...i Love it! ='D
*just click on the title to hear a part of the song:

-IF I NEVER GET TO HEAVEN-

BY: JAVIER

What does your love mean to me
It's something I can't answer easily
Just like the air that I breathe
You fill me up inside,
you give me all that i need

Like a bird flying high on a summer's day
You're the wind that carries me away
To a place where you and i will always stay
Forever..

chorus:
If I never get to heaven,
then at least I will have known
I had an angel here on earth,
that I could call my very own
And if this world should end tomorrow,
Boy (Girl) this much I know is true
I found my piece of heaven,
the day that I found you

Longer than poets will rhyme
Boy (Girl) my love will burn for you,
until the end of time
If I should die before tomorrow comes
I wont regret a single day,
because I had your love

Must be something in the way you say my name
It takes away my worries and my pain
Boy (Girl) I know we'll make it through the rain together

chorus

bridge:
Like a river flows and a flower grows,
My love for you will never fade
Like the sun will rise in the morning sky
You know that i am here to stay... forever...

Asan na ba kasi yung kakantahan ko dapat nito?! Hmmmn... THE ONE! ASAN KA NA BA?! Haha!

BIYAHE TAYO

2005-06-01T12:13:00.000+08:00

Medical-Dental Mission & Alternative Food Seminar ang main reason kung bakit nag ilocos. Tulad ng nakasanyan akala namin ay whole day ang project pero 5 hours lang pala. Kinda disappointed kasi hindi marunong mag host ang host, hindi pa sanay mag project. Sino ba naman hindi maiinis, imagine traveling for 10 hours for a joint project na magattagal lang pala ng 5 hours. Wala na ngang shinoulder ang host na nag invite kahit manlang 1 way, papakainin ka pa ng tira-tira. Ok lang sana kasi it’s an outreach project kung walang wala din sana yung host… but no RC sila. Haaay walang reli!

Mabuti nalang masaya ang side trip… ang bait talaga ni Lord (noh Droo?! Haha!)… Lord ang ganda ng art mo, grabe na… who can grasp Your infinite wisdom?! Thank you Lord for a safe & happy trip! Mwahugz!

DAY 1:

Patapat Viaduct

Pagudpud: Boracay of the North

Paraiso ni Anton

Windmill Farm

Cape Bojeador Lighthouse

DAY 2:

Karayan

Fort Ilocandia

Paoay Church & Bell Tower

Currimao

*Click nalang my flickr for more pix or check my friendster: Bluetooth Adventure Album ='D

DEEP PAIN

2005-05-24T11:35:00.000+08:00

It’s aching…

It's hurting so much…

It feels like breaking…

This excruciating pain is torturing me…

Aaah… my head is throbbing!!!

Ano bat oh…

kagabi pa…

ang sakit sakit ng ulo kooooooo…

errr san pwedeng tanggaling muna!!!

TENCHU TENCHU!!!

2005-05-19T12:41:00.000+08:00

Special thanks to the following pipolertz:
(In alphabetical order para fair…Ü)

*Pips who shared their blessings and effort… ='D
Ben
Bet
Dimps
Droo
Kuya Ian
Jay
Manang Gay
Mang Joe
Pastor Bing
P!
RJ
Tio Ben
Tita Lottie & family
Tita Maya &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; family
Tita Miriam & family
Tita Norma
Tita Peng & Tito Danny
Ton-ton
Tot

*Pips who prayed and praised (haha!)…Ü
Ace
Ate Vi
Cux
Han

*Pips who showed their support, hehe!
Ate Tess
Eric
Hera
Pastor Kevin
Tita Gin & Tito Joe
Tita Claire & family

…thank you so much for helping me make the event a success, may God bless you always… Mwahugz! And shemps to the one who made everything possible, thank you so very much Big Daddy for all the answers, for the lessons, for the guidance, for the strength, for the blessings, for providing, etc. Thanks for everything. Thank youuu!!! Haaay...Lord ako din ha aabot ng matagal para cute?! Hehe! I LOVE YOU MAMA & PAPANG, kahit pasaway kayo minsan... parang ako... hehe kanino pa nga ba ko magmamana! Haha! Mwahugz!

CLARK

2005-05-17T11:49:00.000+08:00

Whew, the Clark event is done. Just two more to go… weee!!! Enjoy naman ang huling hirit ng raket, mas feel ko na ang pagiging “bus guide” effect ko (or dahil hindi puno ang bus ko?! Hehe!). It wasn’t so paguran naman compared nung sa Tagaytay, pero mas feel kong coordinator ako noon. Aktali napagod din naman ako pero hindi sa work kundi dahil pinagod ko lang talaga sarili ko sa kakalakad lakad para maexplore ang clearwaters kasi bored ako sa station ko lalo na pag walang magic show (nakakainis yung magician ang bilis ng kamay, di ko mahuli). Kaso kaka gala ko… ang napala ko, nognog na ako! Kasi tamang nakaupo lang ako sa tabi ilalim ng puno, parang hindi work. Ganun pala feeling ni Ben nung event sa Tagaytay but the difference is ako pwedeng umalis sa sation pag gusto ko, hehe! Pero ok lang, enjoy naman ang experience isama na ang people with an attitude, haha too bad that bus driver hit my “maldita button”, tsk tsk tsk! Nasira tuloy ang araw niya. LoLz! Basta enjoy maging coordinator… hay, I want more! Sana may raket pa ulit… Lord?! Hihi…Ü

WALANG RELI

2005-05-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

Bawal iced tea, bawal coke, bawal powdered juice drink. Dapat atleast 10-12 glasses of water a day and fresh juice. Yan lang ang drinks na dapat allowed sakin. Medicine na I’ll have to take for 30 weeks. And another medicine na I’ll have to take for 2 weeks naman. yan ang sabi ng Doctor during my check up last April 26.

The other day while muni-muni-ing, I realized na… wala! Haha, wala… wala parin akong tigil sa kaka-c2 at kaka-coke. Wala pang araw na dumaan na nakaubos ako ng 2.5 liters (10 glasses) of water at wala parin akong nabibiling gamot, so malamang wala parin akong naiinom kahit isa hanggang ngayon. Yeeeey ang saya-saya!!! Para saan pa kayang nagpa check-up ako?! Wala akong reli, hehe!

PASAWAY

2005-05-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

Haaay mga taong pasaway sa tagaytay tsk tsk tsk... Oh well, thank God its over. TOXIC but it was good, i had fun and shemps twas worth the pay. Hehe! Samamat ng marami Bet --mwahugz!

God is so good, he always provides.

*Thank you Big Daddy! ='D

Whew! One event down, three more to go... grabe talaga ang month na ito, sobrang DEAD ang social life. All weekends taken, hopefully by June everythings back to normal na...(",)

THE GROWING (wider and wider) GIRLS

2005-05-03T05:42:00.000+08:00

Ang "Growing Girls" ng Rotaract Club of Paraiso, QC District-3780

Picture taken sa aming dorm nung District Conference 2005 sa Antipolo. From left to right: Yours truly...Ü Jeanne Robert "BOBBIE" Calixto (Secretary), Rella Lee "RELLY" Ortiz (District Rotaract Representative Elect), Kharolyn "KHAROL" Serion (Immediate Past President), and Jennielyn "JENNS" Mendoza (President).

Parang pang Noontime Show daw yung pic sabi nung tatlo,parang ba?! Haha!

MY FIRST CARAVAN

2005-04-14T05:43:00.000+08:00

WHAT: UPCYM Caravan
WHEN: April 4-11, 2005
WHERE: Calapan, Oriental Mindoro
WHY: Why nga ba?! Chorvaness!!! Hehe!
WHO:
andres a.k.a chumpungin
ate vi a.k.a chanplawer girl (pic coming soon)
ben a.k.a chulikba
bobbie a.k.a chitu (daw, haha!) sa CYF "chubibo", pili nalang...Ü
carla a.k.a chebony
earla a.k.a chayvory
jc a.k.a chondak
jp a.k.a choyat
js a.k.a chorvang chingkit
kuya ian a.k.a chorva / chuper tIyAN (pic coming soon)
lao a.k.a chulala
leslie a.k.a chongkad
tiara a.k.a chilichiling jabarin
tessa a.k.a chututen

***_S_P_E_C_I_A_L_S_***

*SPECIAL MOMENT KO ITO:
andres- ang 2 days of "wala akong pakealam" drama (pang oscars,winner!)
ate vi- every minute with the sunflower hat (may pic to, coming soon)
ben- befriending the sea urchin (dahil kaya introvert? Hmmmn...Ü)
bobbie- "hindi ko mahanap...growth gap ako e" (Hahahahahahah!)
carla- :( nagogrowth gap ako... la kong maisip!
earla- "ano pagkatapos mo kaming puyatin kagabi, makikipagsayawan ka mamaya? Ian, susunugin kita!"
jc- "tatalunin ko si tessa... derecho ako mag swim, promise" effect
jp- nang matuto akong mag hulahup
js- :( nagogrowth gap din ako... la din akong maisip!
kuya ian- presenting "super tIAN" (may pic din to, coming soon din)
lao- tulala (na lagi naman ata, hehe!) "saan ako nagkulang? SpEd pa ako." effect
leslie- "waaah...waaah... ay mababawa pala, hahaha!"
tiara- ang pagdating ng jabar na talagang kailangang ibroadcast sa earth
tessa- ang "close na kami ni Kuya ian kaya ok lang na mag fart ako habang naglalakad kami" & stargazing with Leslie & JP... "mag aral kaya ako ng deuteronomy?!"

...so sino pag nagtataka bat si tessa ang caravan icon?! LoLz!

**SPECIAL PIPOL AND THEIR ISPEYSIAL SOMEONE:
ben- and his daughter
bobbie- and the istoker (hindi na tuloy ever nakapag beach...white pa naman kaso may sea urchin, haha!)
jc- and the textmate (yihee! ano na nga name ulit nun?!)
leslie- and the admirer

***SPECIAL MEMORIES TO KEEP:
the kids: their innocent faces, genuine smile, voice and "sar" / "madam"; the place: the mountains, fresh air, white sand and mangyan houses; the experience: dancing & singin with the kids, preparing materials for the next day, sunrise at the beach, silent nights, "poso" pumping and one week of "kamayan" festival; others: cute hyper kids (baby goats), star fish, and pugita.

INTERESTING CONVERSATION

2005-03-31T02:16:00.000+08:00

Again, an email that I received… share ko ulit…

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his lass on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new Christian students to stand and.....

Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student:Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir.. The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.

NB: I believe you have enjoyed the conversation...and if so...you'll probably want your friends/colleagues to enjoy the same...won't you?...forward them to increase their knowledge...

"Test Everything. Hold on to the Good. Avoid every kind of Evil."
- 1 Thessalonians 5:21-22 (NIV)

"For False Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and miracles to deceive even the elect -if that were possible."
- Matthew 24:24 (NIV)

"The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish stongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."
– 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (NIV)

"I charge you before the Lord to have this letter read to all the brothers." 1 Thessalonians 5:27 (NIV)

How about you? Do you believe? Do you have faith? =’D

BAGETS

2005-03-23T16:10:00.000+08:00

This is a nice reflection guide in time for Lenten....
Lenten Season Message: 'Bagets'
by Fr. Gerry Orbos BACK in 1990, when my brother, Manong Oscar, was the secretary of the Department of Transportation and Communications (DOTC), I also introduced
myself as the secretary of transformation and Communion!

Come to think of it, the whole Lenten season is simply the call toward real conversion and transformation of one's heart and character, and, toward a deeper, more personal communion with God and others, especially the less fortunate in our midst. Its the time to be renewed and vibrant, to be BAGETS (not bakets-Ilocano word for old woman) in our spiritual life once again.

So, let's go B-A-G-E-T-S for Lent.

B-Balik Panginoon:
Let us bring back God into our hearts by making a good confession. When was the last time you really humbled yourself and asked to be forgiven by your God? Right away, the evil one will tell you that you have no real sins (denial), that it's really not that bad so there's no need to go to confession (rationalization) and that you go to confession. "tsaka na lang" (postponement).

A-Alis Galit:
Look into your heart and dispose all the useless junk you've been carrying in your heart all these years. You are not obliged to be miserable in this life! Forgive and you are free. Continue to be angry and resentful and you are miserable. You have been forgiven much. Be grateful. Be forgiving. End your private wars and battles. In the end, nobody wins if nobody forgives. Forget your favorite refrain that says "Me and me against the world." And stop being calculating and exacting in your relationships. Dapat give na give ka, huwag lang one-give, two gives, three gives!

G-Gawa Mabuti:
Share naman. You, who have much in life, please help the many people suffering around. I raise again the question: How much money do you really need in this life to be happy? How much of that money you are accumulating and holding on so can you take along with you when you leave this world? Remember, to whom much is given, much is also required. Again, be reminded that the riches (time, talent, and treasure) that you give away are the only riches you bring with you to eternity. Use your money for your salvation, not for your condemnation.

E - Express your Love:
Slow down and take time for God and people, and also for yourself. A very good practice is to kneel down as soon as you wake up and before you sleep to express! your adoration, contrition, thanksgiving, supplication (ACTS) to your God. Another doable and very renewing practice is to drop by a church just to spend some moments of quiet and prayer-the candle glow once more! On the human level, it is amazing how we can "starve" other people of our love. We give only the comfortable installment, as it were, with a plan to give the lump sum when the person is dead or dying already. When it comes to loving, regular daily shower is better than a long drought with a final big downpour. Little things mean a lot, and it takes very little to make our loved ones happy. A phone calls. A smile, a pat on the back, a hug, very doable. Just do it now.

T - Tanggal Bisyo:
Someone once told me that he had no temptations. Why? Because as soon as temptation comes, he'd give in right away! We must not give up fighting our vices and weaknesses. We must continue to! try and avoid the occasions and persons that lead us to sin. It would be a good idea to chart once the stages and steps that led you to a particular sinful moment. Once you know that road, avoid it. That's right: take the "road less traveled." It leads to peace. It leads to Heaven.

S - Sacrifice:
The "mardi-gras" and the carnival started as pre-Lenten celebrations to accentuate the spirit of sacrifice, the spirit of fasting and abstinence of cuaresma (40 days). Carnival comes from the Latin word carne (meat) and vale (goodbye). Lent is the time to say goodbye to whatever or whoever is dragging you down in your spiritual life. So, what would it be? Goodbye girls? Goodbye gambling? Goodbye kurakot? Take your pick.

S - Smile:
Whatever sacrifice or good deeds you do, do it with a smile. God loves a cheerful giver, and God blesses a generous grateful! (not resentful) heart. Take away that "Good Friday look" from your face and that "far-away look" in your eyes.

S - Secret:
If you want to experience real joy, do all of the above in secret. Let it be something just between you and your God, and you'll experience a joy, which the world cannot give or take away. Come to think of it, maybe this is the reason I started this with a note about being a secretary-a reminder to keep our Lenten project of transformation and communion a secret.

A MOMENT WITH THE LORD:
Lord, you are calling me again towards deeper conversion. Today, this moment, I hear your voice. Help me not to harden my heart. Amen.

Naaliw ako sa email kaya share ko ulit...hehe!
Have a wonderful time with the Lord brothers and sisters... a blessed holy week to everyone! ;'D

DID YOU KNOW?

2005-03-02T07:49:00.000+08:00

Again, for the nth time natanggap ko nanaman ‘tong mail na ‘to. Malamang nabasa nyo na din 'to, la lang gusto ko lang i-share ulit kasi... oo nga mej totoo, nakarelate ako sa iba… ikaw baka gusto mo i-share kung saan sa 1-8 ka nakartelate?! =’D

1-Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

2-Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?

3-Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

4-Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

5-Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

6-Did you know that those who need more of you are those that don't mention it to you?

7-Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

8-Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you, Sorry and Help me
The people who say these are actually in need of them or really feel them, and are the ones you really need to treasure.

TLW

2005-02-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

True Love Waits Part 2, February 25, 2005

Sinusubukan namin gayahin yung logo ng True Love Waits...gaya ba?! Hehe! Back: Vinci: "star", Kitchie: "L" , Tiara: "O", Tessa: "V", Me: "E" (kaso natakpan), Aldrin: "heart" (pero pang McDo, haha!). Front: Micah: "T", Dimples: "L", Acielle: "W"

14 WHITE PUFFY FLOWERS

2005-02-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

Ang ganda naman ng flowers pero 14 lang?! Sana mas madami pa... sige paramihin ko daw.

Nung una excited pa ko... pero ngayon napapagod na koh...parang ayoko na ata... Ayokong gamitin muli ang linyang "AYAW MO, WAG MO"... mali eh... asan na ang love kung basta basta nalang mag gi-give-up, diba Love is patient?! But... aaargh!

Mahirap kasi eee...

P_L_E_A_S_E_!_!_!

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2 THESSALONIANS 3:6-15

Warning Against Idleness

In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, we command you, brothers, to keep away from every brother who is idle and does not live according to the teaching you received from us. For you yourselves know how you ought to follow our example. We were not idle when we were with you, nor did we eat anyone's food without paying for it. On the contrary, we worked night and day, laboring and toiling so that we would not be a burden to any of you. We did this, not because we do not have the right to such help, but in order to make ourselves a model for you to follow. For even when we were with you, we gave you this rule: “If a man will not work, he shall not eat.”

We hear that some among you are idle. They are not busy; they are busybodies. Such people we command and urge in the Lord Jesus Christ to settle down and earn the bread they eat. And as for you, brothers, never tire of doing what is right.

If anyone does not obey our instruction in this letter, take special note of him. Do not associate with him, in order that he may feel ashamed. Yet do not regard him as an enemy, but warn him as a brother.

PRAMIS!

2005-02-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

I PROMISE

Lord You know my heart and all my desire
And the secret things I’ll never tell
Lord, You know them well.

Though I may be young
I see and understand
That at times, like a sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand.

So I promise to be true to You
To live my life in purity as unto You
Waiting for the day, when I hear You say:
“Here is The One I have created just for you.”

Until then oh Lord
I will be content
Knowing that true LoVe will come someday
It will only come from You.

Cause I have seen
The suffering that loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our LoVe away
Without a righteous cause.

“Here is The One I have created just for you!”

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BUTAS

2005-02-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

*20 minutes late for work, binibilisan ang lakad
Eeerrrr late nanaman!!! Daliii!!!

*Malapit na sa kanto ng Romulo Hall
malapit na, makakasakay na ko…

*Biglang may nahulog galing sa bulsa
Kinapa ang bulsa: Huh, ano yun?! Aaarrsh phone… NooOOO!!!

!!!Butas pala ang bulsa ng pantalon, lumusot ang cellphone, nahulog, dumulas, na shoot papasok sa butas ng drainage.

*Nakatayo naiiyak-iyak na naiinis, may lumapit na manong maintenance
MM: Ano yun miss?
B: Yung phone ko po nahulog, na-shoot po doon. (sabay turo sa drainage)
MM: Sigurado kang dyan mo nahulog?
B: Oo, nakita ko po.
MM: Naku malalim yan. May pasok ka ba?
B: Opo.
MM: Sigurado ka dyan talaga ha?!
B: Opo. Dyan po talaga.

*Lumapit si MM kay manong guard
MM: Bay (tama ba spelling? Ü), may barena ba dyan? Nahulog kasi cellphone niya e.
MG: Saan?
MM: Dyan sa drainage.
MG: (nakatingin sakin) Siguradong kang dyan?
B: Opo. Haaaa… (naiinis na naiiyak)

*Alis si manong guard habang sinisilip silip ni MM yung butas at sinusubukang kapain baka hindi pa nahulog sa loob ang phone.
MM: (tumayo) hindi maaano yun, wala naming tubig dyan e, wala kasing ulan
B: Haaa… Lord… please...

*Pabalik na si MG at may dalang barena, inabot na kay MM at sinimulan na ang pag bakbak sa seal ng takip ng drainage. Naalis na, dumapa na si MM para silipin ang phone
MM: Wala naman e, sigurado ka bang dito talaga?
B: Opo.
MM: (inaabot kay MG ang barena) Teka bay, hawakan mo aabutin ko.
B: Nakita nyo na po?! Eeeei… (kinikilig kilig)

*Inabot ni MM ang phone sakin
B: (maalikabok… punas sa harap, sa lik…) Ay wala po yung housing sa likod
MG: Wala?!
B: Wala po.
MG: Asana napunta yun?! (silip-silip parin si MM)
MM: Ano ba yun?
MG: Yung case sa likod
MM: Ano ba itsura nun?!
MG: Ayun yata natakpan ng malaking dahon
MM: (Hinawi ang mga dahon) Wala e.
B: Dibale nalang po
MM: Baket?! Mapapalitan ba yun?
B: Opo
MG: Mura lang naman ata yun e.
B: Opo mura lang po yun. Hayaan nyo na po.

*Tumayo na si MM at si MG at ibinalik na ang takip ng drainage
B: (Abot ng tsiih kay MG) Ito po Manong pang meryenda nyo.
MG: Sakanya nalang
B: (Abot kay MM) Ito po o pang meryenda nyo. Thank you po!!!
MM: (nagkamot ng ulo [hindi ko napansin kung nag blush,hehe!]) Nako, salamat!

*Lakad na ulit, pagsakay sa jeep
Haaay… Thank you Lord!

*Pagdating sa shop habang hinihimas himas ang phone
Sira na ang housing, hmpf! Dibale bibili nalang ako bukas… bwisit na butas!

*Isip-isip
Yan kasi text ng text pa kagabi, nag alarm na nga na time for QT na… imbis na mag QT inuna pa pagtetext… Tsk! Tsk! Tsk!

Sorry Lord... sorry! =’(

IN HIS PERFECT TIME

2005-02-15T05:20:00.000+08:00

A Time for Everything

"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
'a time to love and a time to hate',
a time for war and a time for peace.

He has made everything beautiful in its time..."

~Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 & 11~

Valentine's day, time to LoVe?! Sige... tapos bukas time to hate naman kasi hindi na 14, LoLz!
In His perfect time... everything will be fine...
HaPpY VaLeNtiNe'S DaY to aLL!!!

DAD

2005-02-10T02:39:00.000+08:00

-I called you DAD-

In stature you stood above the rest,
A man of strength you faced each test
Your smile could warm the coldest heart
Your voice brought light in the dark.

Securely wrapped in spiritual prayers,
I always knew that you were there
You lived your faith in many ways,
Never seeking earthly praise.

I watched examples set for me,
In you ‘twas Christ I’d always see,
You made my heart so very glad
How blessed I was to call you Dad.

aaah... Lord, nami miss ko si Daddy... ='(

BROKENHEARTED

2005-02-04T15:53:00.000+08:00

He loves pets, he loves to cook, he loves to give, a sweet person, caring, humble, loving, responsible, very strong, formal, wise, etc.. I admire him, to me he is perfect. Others are so lucky to have him. I’m praying to have someone like him in the future. He has everything I would ever want in a guy. If people ask me to describe “THE ONE” , I always answer it should be someone like him. A “GODLY” version of him.

This morning, things seemed so heavy, I felt like I hated everything around me. I knew it was coming, I knew I should have prepared myself --it was not that easy. I did not expect that “soon” was “now”. I thought I would still be able to greet him on his birthday this coming May. I prayed if He could let him stay until June for the family reunion. I was expecting I would still be able to hug him tight, kiss him, thank him for everything and tell him how much I love him. But it was not His will.

It’s so sad that it’s over…though it’s breaking my heart, I have to accept that all these now belong to the past. Fond memories will stay, it’s difficult, but … it’s now time to say-- goodbye!

HIRAM

2005-02-02T08:00:00.000+08:00

-Hiram-
Hindi ko kukunin dahil hindi naman akin,
‘Di ko rin aangkinin kasi alam kong pahiram lang yan sa’kin.

‘Wag mo naman sabihin na inaagaw ko,
Kasi alam mong hindi rin yan sa’yo.

At imposibleng gawin ko ang iniisip mo,
Ang mang agaw ay ni minsan hindi sumagi sa isip ko.

Sana huwag mong ipagdamot sa ibang tao,
Hindi naman yan ginawa para lang sa’yo.

‘Wag mong higpitan at paglaruan,
Maawa ka may buhay din yan.

‘Wag mong ikulong, ‘wag mong diktahan,
Hayaan mo lang, marunong mag isip yan.

Pakawalan mo, huwag ikubli,
Dahil ito’y mas makakabuti.

Kaibigan pakatandaan mo,
Wala kang pag-aari sa mundong ito.

Kaya ‘wag mong sabihin na yan ay sa’yo.
Tulad ng buhay mo, pahiram lang din yan ng Diyos sa’yo.

WEIRD BUT NICE

2004-12-14T05:47:00.000+08:00

It’s weird that after feeling so sick for the past 3 days (actually until now pero ubo nalang), I feel so light today. Kahit kulang nanaman sa tulog, hindi ako tinamad bumangon kanina. Tapos walang traffic sa Tandang Sora (imagine?!) and for that hindi ako late for work. Dabah?! Happy talaga!!! Weee!!! Sana walang munang bad news, hay… I just hope that this day would end na light parin. Nice day… light & easy... carefree!

God is good! Thank you Lord! Mwahugz!

THANK YOU PIPS!

2004-12-09T07:29:00.000+08:00

Thank you pips for being there and for your prayers, please po let’s keep praying.
Sorry kung parang ang kulit ko. I just really need to be reminded, sometimes…
Thanks ulit… Mwahugz!

-> KUYA IAN <- 12/07/04 [ 10:04: 23] GOD IS IN CONTROL . . .

–> JASON <- 12/07/04 [10:05:51] sure bobsh..ü
Godbless..

–> KUYA IAN <- 12/07/04 [22:07:20] anyone who kneels before God can stand up before anything! Be strong in the Lord.

-> KUYA BART <- 12/07/04 [22:08:47] Don’t wory. Lets pray for dat bobbie ü. Prov 3:5-6.

-> COOKIE <- 12/07/04 [22:20:22] Be strong, girl!
Claim His promises.
You’re not alone.

-> TIARA <- 12/07/04 [22:21:31] bt remmbr, it is only in dying dat we r born in2 eternal lyf. We r entitld 2 b sad. bt dnt 4get dt God is wid ur family…

-> ATE VI <- 12/07/04 [23:15:57] Hang in der, d Lord s wachng ovr u& shal get u thru dis storm, just cling 2 Him. 1petr5:7
Isaiah43:1-2
2cor4,prayn4u

-> MILKY <- 12/08/04 [o5:33:39] Though the wrong seems oft so strong, God is the ruler yet. Bobbie, u n ur fam wl b n my prayers. God blesü

-> HANNIYAH <- 12/08/04 [10:20:13] 1 PETER 1:1-12.
God bles. Jesus
Loves u! Psalm
55:22.ü

SAD SOBRA...

2004-12-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

Tio Ben told Mama to ready ourselves kasi hindi din magtatagal we will lose Daddy. Sobrang nakakagulat na nasabi ni Mama yun samin ng wala ni isang patak ng luha na tumulo. Wala na daw operation na gagawin kasi wala din naman effect, hindi din naman niya mapreprevent yung pag spread. Tio Ben asked the doctors if Daddy would be in pain, sabi daw nila, We will make it easy for him.

Oo nga tama naman si Tio Ben eventually lahat tayo mamamatay (alam ko din naman yun) kaso kasi napakadaling sabihin parang ganun-ganun lang pero ang hirap tanggapin. Ang panget talaga ng feeling na alam mong you're loosing someone tapos ayaw mo kaso wala kang magawa. Haaay, sad… sobra… Lord help...

-Teach me-
Teach me how to understand,
Then teach me how to surrender.
Teach me how to accept,
Then teach me how to let go.
Teach me Lord how…

Lord God, I believe in You (John 11:27) and
I trust in You. (Psalm 31:14)
I know that You’re in control. (Philippians 3:21)
I know that nothing is impossible with You. (Mark 10: 27)
That everything has a purpose. (Romans 8:28)
I ask You to help us get through this. (Isaiah 43:1-2)
I know You care for us. (1 Peter 5:7) and
I know you have plans for us (Jeremiah 29:11)
I’m claiming all of these promises for my family, Father…

AAAAH… MAY BAGYO NGA!!!

2004-12-03T05:34:00.000+08:00

I was having a hard time getting up this morning kasi umuulan, masarap matulog (ang baboy ko talaga) but I have to get up na kasi opening ako sa shop today. Classes suspended in all levels and Mama didn’t go to work because of super typhoon Yoyong, scary nga naman kasi siya ang laki-laki. I had second thoughts of going to work kasi baka mahirap na umuwi mamaya pero naisip ko hindi naman nawawalan ng tao sa UP kahit walang pasok, so fine papasok ako. Mama sat with me while having my breakfast -- may bagyo din pala siyang dala.

Tio Ben (Mama’s younger brother) called daw last night and gave her an update regarding Daddy. Suspect daw ng Doctors niya na may cancer siya sa stomach (I don’t know what they call it) and today daw malalaman kung positive or not then doon i-ba-base kung ooperahan ba o hindi, so I assumed na hindi naman ganun kalala. But hearing that Daddy’s not really fine…makes me want to cry pero naisip ko mas mabuting hindi para hindi din bumigay si Mama. Medyo ok pa ko but when Mama said na she’ll be going to the states soon to see Daddy, parang na-confuse ako kasi hindi sila normally ganun magplano. Naisip ko tuloy hindi kaya may tinatago sila…

Right now I just want to cry but I know that it wouldn’t make a difference and it’ll be better pa if I pray. (sigh) God is good…

I’m holding on to you Lord, please help our Daddy… we love him so much… I know you love him too…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2004-11-30T18:02:00.000+08:00

Parang sasabog bahay namin. Si Leo may patalon-talon pang nalalaman, muka tuloy siyang kaluluwa.

Sige smile parin kahit kumakain... huli tuloy si Kuya Ian, hehe!

Hala! Si Jason oh dinadaan sa smile... Hording ng chicken!!! Ayan na si Mama oh, lagot! May kasama pang resbak, si Papang. :P

LoLz! Sowi pipz, ako yung nag move muka tuloy kayong masaSadako lahat...Hehe! Soreyes!

Inch, sana nakikihalubilo tayo sa mga tao...

Jason & Ben naguunahang matapos para makapag 2nd round na. Dinadaan nyo talaga sa ngiti ha...

Stolen shot nanaman kuno. Nice try Ben, halatang fake na tuloy! Peace!

Friends Forever!!! ...i'LL be waiting.. everlasting... like the sun... ay! sowi! viva forever pala yun, hehe!

Sowi guys, malabo ulit... My bad again. Sensya na! Tao lang! Hehe!

Garage na. Papang taking the picture. Kodakan before ng magstart ang Praise & Worship thingy.

Papang still taking the picture. Kanong anit yan?! Nakakasilaw! JoKe lang! Texters challenge ba ito Alfred & Jason?!

Kanya kanyang buhay... Halata talaga mga takaw picture, haha!

Sige smile lang kahit hindi na kayo kita... Smile like there's no tomorrow,hehe!

Napakahirap kumuha ng stolen shot pag mga UPCYMians ang kukunan, hindi ata tinuturo sa UP ang konsepto ng stolen shot. Suggest ko nga, kahit sa SBF lang, hehe!

Ang serious ah! Parang totoo! Hehe! Pipz writing their bday letters.

Me & my Momi iYa (Spiritual Mom / Discipler) Ang saya-saya, noh?!

Ewan, basta ako masaya ako, KEBS ko sainyo!!! Nyaha!

Ei, there's my ... nyaha! Maganda na sana kaso kita yung sampayan namin... =O/

Dibale ng may-ma-miss sa pag-d-DVD marathon basta makapag smile sa picture, dedma na muna ang movie, grabe talaga!

Left to Right (speak no evil, hear no evil, see no evil) Halata bang bagong gising kaming tatlo?! Si JP diba oo?! LoLz!

Ang pinakabagong LoVe Team ng CRL, Nyahahahah! Ang cute nila noh?!

Pero shempre mas cute yung amin ni Tol, Chong, Pare, Dude, Pepito gud! Hehe! Hay nako Andres, hindi ako papayag! Mas cute parin ang picture namin ni JP kahit na weird yung pose nya. Hmpf!

Morning of November 29 at the breakfast table with some friendly friends, birthday ko na talaga! Weeeeeee!

Yuuum...sarap ng pandesal...Hehe! Nice trip JP!

TO: Ate Vi, (CYFers) Jason, Leo, Mica, Tessa, Tiara & Vinci, (UPCYMians) Alfred, Andres, Ben, Deosa, Dimples, Ian, JS, Lao, Leslie, Milky, Pepito & Suzzane maraming salamat po sa inyong pagdalo, you guys really made me happy. Answered prayer kayo & shempre blessing kayong lahat sakin. Thank you sa mga prayers, wishes, letters, and gifts nyo. May God bless you always! Mwahugz to all! =D

FAILED THE TEST, BUT LEARNED SOMETHING

2004-11-29T19:12:00.000+08:00

(Warning: This is a loooong entry, PROMISE!!! Kanin muna kayong pacencia baka ndi nyo kayanin. Hehe, ang corny ko!)

-The Test-

I usually jog every Sat (with Leo, Andres & JP na never pang sumipot kahit minsan… =P). I don’t know kung bakit ako tinatamad last Saturday pero tumuloy parin ako. Meeting time is 5:30-6:00am at Church then finished na dapat by 8am kasi mag aasist kami ni Leo sa Medical Mission ng Women’s Guild. I was almost 10mins late, wala na si Leo & Andres, so text ako to ask kung asan ana sila para if ever derecho na kong Acad Oval kaso dedma sila pareho. I kept on texting, wala parin. I decided na tumambay muna sa UPCYM & watch nalang ng TV while waiting. Feeling ko iniwan na nila ako dahil late ako at naisnis na sila kaya no reply sila. After several texts, finally nag crok-crok na ang phone ko, aba akalain mong kakagising lang ni Leo?! I was like, Huwaaaat, kakagisisng lang?! Anung petsa na?! Nagreready na sila Mang Joe for the Med Mission, grabe! Then I realized siguro not meant na mag jog today, so watch nalang ako while (still) waiting for Leo kasi walang magandang show… for that, inatake ako ng pagka-OC ko so I decided to clean the UPCYM tambayan (Btw, kaninong alaga pala yung mga munggo sa cabinet nyo?! Sowi kasi tinapon ko na. =P) . Then my cuz Manang Gay arrived, then Leo & Micah, then Aciell (tama ba spelling? :D), nung una nanunuod lang sila then later on tumulong na tutal wala pa naman yung mga Doctors sa Med Mission.

Late din nagstart ang Med Mission kasi nga late ang Doctors, though we finished earlier than expected & just in time for lunch. (YeHeY!!! Salamat naman at makakakain na ko, kasi hindi pa ko nakakapag breakfast, si Leo kasi, hindi tuloy kami nakapag taho, hmpf!) Anyway, after lunch I had to go to the Shop kasi iiwan ko ang CD & list of songs na ipapaburn ko for my Bday thingy the next day. Then went home, then nag ligpit-ligpit parin sa house for the Bday thingy parin. Then went to the grocery (with my Mama, Papang & M'g Gay) and yes! still for the Bday thingy. (Halata bang excited ako?! Hehe!) We prepared na the menu kaso Mama changed her mind the last minute, so medjo natagalan pa lalo mag grocery pero enjoy naman kasi noon nalang ulit ako nakasama sa pag-gro-grocery, bonding na din. Hehe!

I was so excited cause I know & I have planned that my Bday celebration will be different although I was praying na maayos ang UPCYM issue kasi nga hindi magiging effective yung prayer prayer thingy na plan ko kung may dipagkakaunawaan sila, shemps hindi clean (tama ba term? Oh whatever, getz nyo naman e) ang heart&mind, and ayoko naman na meron hindi masaya. I thought yun lang yung problem ko, but wait there’s more! I heard Mama & Manang Mel talking sa kitchen while unloading the grocery bags, the only clear phrase I heard was “ni Daddy?” (ilocano which in tagalong is “si Daddy?” Btw, Daddy is Mama’s father), I didn’t pay attention kasi kala ko wala lang, but no! Mamang (my Lola) called nung nasa grocery kami & she was crying daw kasi Daddy was rushed to the hospital kasi “mahina na”, and I was like, Huwaaaat?! Ayoko naman magcelebrate kung hirap ang isang loved one ko! Noooo!!! (Not unless makita kong ok naman siya, eh hello?! Sana pwedeng i-jeep ang T. Sora - Daly City), but then naalala ko I can pray naman for Him although shempre hindi mawawala yung pagaalala. So I asked Mama to text them to ask kung anung latest development then before dinner Mamang called na and Daddy was OK na daw (OK is an understatement!) kaso nasa hospital parin. We were in the middle of dinner when P! (my brother) arrived from school, he was about to seat nung bigla siyang nagsabi kay Mama na ito-tour nila yung visitors ng rotaract tomorrow, tapos whole day daw. Like, Huh?! Tomorrow?! Eh tomorrow ako magcecelebrate e! Pano na yung plan ko na ipagppray sila kung wala siya dun?! Aaaaaah!

I wanted to cry, I can’t even finish my plate anymore, I can’t describe the feeling, it was so so so heavy. I took a deep breath and pushed myself to finish my plate then I went out for a walk to get some fresh air and think. I was asking myself if it’s the enemy or it’s God, but if it’s God why is He allowing these things to happen?! My mind was screaming, Ok lang sana kaso kelangan ba talagang sa Bday ko ba talaga dapat mangyari lahat?! Lord, ano ba?! I felt bad, inis ako, galit ako, pikon ako, at gusto kong umiyak. But I knew na hindi dapat kasi kasalanan ko din. I never asked God if my the plans I made for my birthday was also His plan for me, alam ko mali pero yun talaga yung gusto ko. I said to myself paninindigan ko na, nakapag invite na ko, nakapag grocery na kami & Mama started cooking the jellies already, ano pang magagawa ko?! Bahala na bukas!

I can’t sleep, I didn’t do my quiet time, I didn’t want to commune with Him, I didn’t open my bible, I can’t remember if I closed my eyes when I prayed “Lord, si Daddy. Take care of Daddy.”, but for sure I didn’t want any vision or anything from Him that night. Ganun kasama ang loob ko. I was forcing myself to sleep but it didn’t work, I realized kelangan ko palang basahin yung lesson for Sunday School kasi magteteach kami ni Tiara and assignment kong gumawa ng activity/game for the CYF to introduce the lesson and to make their Q&A attendance. But I can’t concentrate, the only thing na naiisip ko was: Daddy, P, UPCYM & pano bukas?! I ended up just staring at the paper pero sa kakatitig nakatulog ako.

After almost 5 hrs of sleep nagising ako, may light na, masyado pang maaga to get up puwede pang mag extend ng 2hrs. I tried to go back to sleep but I can’t na. Nakipagdebate pa muna ako kung kakausapin ko na ba siya o hindi, then finally I decided to talk. Heavy talaga yung feeling so start palang I cried na… nagsorry sorry for being so stubborn & for crawling off the altar (again for the nth time), thanked Him for waking me up, for being so patient with me and for loving me parin, asked for guidance & blessing not just for me but for my family, relatives & friends, and finally prayed that may His will be done (kahit na nahihirapan akong tanggapin mas alam naman nya kung anung makakabuti sakin).

I had hot choco for breakfast (as usual it’s a Sunday so no solid food until I reach church) then prepared for church. While on the way I started reading the lesson, finally nagetz ko na siya, so may game na ko. Everything was much lighter compared yesterday until Ate Vi talked to me about something I did na hindi ko dapat ginawa, I felt the heavy thing with me again pero tuloy ang araw, finally vesper na, hindi ako naglead sa band (shemps, hindi naman pwede yun) and mas kelangan kong mag worship, floating parin ang mind ko during the service then kneeling time na, I finally surrendered na, ilang minutes nalang magcecelebrate na ko, wala na kong magagawa, I just prayed na sana masaya naman although feeling ko hindi (what's that again? Do not depend... haha!) basta bahala na siya.

Masaya naman ang mga pipolertz after service. After the ExeCom meeting na anung petsa na natapos (hehe!), we had to drop by yakal to pick up Suzanne, Leslie & JP, then YeY! nakaalis na din kami sa UP… Let’s get the party started na, but wait there's more! We were almost home when I saw my Kuya walking and I was like, Si P!!! andito na si P!!! Waaah, Thank You Lord. Haha, kala ko hindi siya makakasama sa prayer kasi akala ko aabutin ng madaling araw (usually kasi ganun talaga) yung pag tour nila sa mga Singaporians. The party was good, happy happy naman lahat, hindi lang ako sure kung nabusog lahat. Basta ang saya although may onting iyakan part. Everything was more than what I prayed for… Haha! In my face noh?!

Oh well, ito na matatapos na ko… lesson part na… While doing may quiet time kanina, ito ang sabi ni Lord…

-The Lesson-

Pain’s Purpose
Hebrews 12: 7-11

Affliction, when we accept it with patience and humility, can lead us to a deeper, fuller life. “Before I was afflicted I went astray,” David wrote, “but now I keep Your Word” (Psalm 119:67). And again, “It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I may learn your statutes.” (v.71).

Pain, far from being as obstacle to our spiritual growth, can actually be the pathway to it. If we allow pain to train us, it can lead us closer to God and into His Word. It is often the means by which our Father graciously shapes us to be like His Son, gradually giving us the courage, compassion, contentment, and tranquility we long and pray for. Without pain, God would not accomplish all that He desires to do in and through us.

Are you one whom God is instructing through suffering and pain? By His grace you can endure His instruction patiently (2 Corinthians 12:9). He can make the trial a blessing and use it to draw you into His heart and into His Word. He can also teach you the lesson He intends for you to learn, and give you His peace in the midst of your difficulties.

The Bible tells us, “Count it all joy when you fall into various trials” (James 1:2). God is making more out of you than you ever thought possible.

Through trials we learn to overcome,
Through Christ our victories are won;
Come lay your burdens at His feet
And find this inner peace so sweet.
-Halsey-

~Christ can transform painful trials into glorious triumphs.~

Dear Lord,
I Praise You and Thank so much for being so patient with me though I often crawl off the altar, for being so faithful to Your promises and for always being there for me, thank You for loving me though I’m so unlovable and I’m unworthy of that love. Thank You for everything Father God. Thank you so much. Without You I’m nothing. Thank You for choosing, for allowing me to be Your daughter, Your servant, Your soldier. You’re all I want Lord, You’re all I ever needed. Thank You Lord God for being my all. Thank You for saving me! Thank You! I LOVE YOU! Mwahugz to You DAD!!!

KINDA DIFFERENT

2004-11-22T15:30:00.000+08:00

A week from now birthday ko na, YeY! I’m planning to do it in a different way… first, kasi I’m doing it on the 28th na usually every 30th ko ginagawa (dahil walang pasok at walang excuse ang mga pipol na hindi makapunta dahil holiday naman)… second, kasi alcohol free ang celebration na usually bumabaha ng alcohol… third, limited ang guests to 20 (dahil mej short ako ngayon) na usually ay min-40 max-50… fourth, majority ng pupunta ay new friends (hindi ba ang ganda yun?! Hehe!) na usually kadas ko lang… fifth, it’ll be a praise and worship celeb na usually get together and drama. Bakit naiba? Si Lord kasi… He’s near na…

And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different, Lord
And I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
And I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You

So yun, kaya iba na. But actually I’ve known Him since Sunday School and I’ve accepted Him as my God, pero last May (CYF retreat) ko nalang talaga siya inaccept sa life ko as my Lord. Then after that, everything changed na. (Iba ka talaga Lord, You’re SIMPLY AMAZING!!!) I owe everything to Him…this life, the family that He gave me, friends (old and new) that He has blessed me with, all that I have (talents / skills / abilities – material things). Situations that I’ve been through (good & bad) which molded me to a better, stronger and mas faithful na person. Kaya yun, gusto ko THANK YOU ko sa kanya yung birthday celebration ko, kasi I wouldn’t be here now breathing in this wonderful world and I wouldn’t reach this age if not because of Him. So in return dalawa kaming star dapat sa birthday ko, hindi lang ako. Dabah?! Bongga!

So pinagppray ko lang na sana mangyari yung naiisip ko, sana masaya, sana makapunta lahat ng SWATerz!!! Kelangan may gift lahat, pero sa Sunday nyo na din malalaman kung ano yun kasi samin nyo siya gagawin. Hehe! Hay… kakainis ndi makakasama si Hanniyah… =’( Haaaaaaaaaann!!! Pagpray mo nalang ako, ha?! Enchu! Miss na kita! Mwahugz!

Watch out nalang for the Pix, soon… ochey?! ='P

HEALING

2004-11-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

Now that we have gotten through one more fall
I can just admit I’ve got it all
’Cause I do
’Cause I’ve got You
We’ve crossed these battle lines
Too many times
It passes through the heart
But it never leaves a mark
Chorus:
’Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on dealing me
One more cure
One more chance that wasn’t there before
In Your arms no pain can harm the way
I’m feeling
Lord, I know that Your love is healing
I’ve kicked around these lines
In my head
But I never listened to the words that You said
See where it’s led
Well, I know I have it now
’Cause You showed me how
And all I had to do
Was just to keep my eyes on You
Chorus:
’Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on dealing me
One more cure
One more chance that wasn’t there before
In Your arms no pain can harm the way
I’m feeling
Lord, I know that Your love is healing.