OUT! I'm now stepping out of my comfort zone. Ito pala yung sinasabi Niya, dito pala ako nireready. As usual nung una hindi ko maintindihan kung para saanang mga paulit ulit na ipinapaalala sakin. Isasabak na pala ako sa battlefield. Grounded nga ba ako?! I'm not sure if I'm really ready for this but His timing is perfect and He called me for this so malamang time na nga. Di narin naman ako baby, isang taon mahigit na din akong Kristiyano ayoko naman maging "Bonjing"! Honestly, wala pa kong gameplan for this battle, ang dami kong "what if's" sa mind. My fear/s? Ewan! Basta kinakabahan ako pero ang sabi "Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1:9) Hmmmn...pwede bang mag ocular lang muna & mag observe sa battlefield Lord then saka ako gagawa ng gameplan ko?! I hope to pass every test, I hope to win every challenge, I would want to at least make You smile.IN! I finally accepted Pentathlon's offer as a Marketing Assistant, a professional term for "utusan"... ok lang kasi "servant" naman talaga ako. I hope to deliver what's expected of me (or more kaya parang mas ok yata yun) and I hope to fulfill His purpose for me there. Haaaay I'm excited yet nervous but above all I feel blessed. I'll be starting next week and I should be ready, I will so I'll ask. Daming fruits Lord nakakainspire naman... please tech me how to get all of them.
Oi enemy! Alam ko nababasa mo to tas eepal ka nanaman sa picture, pabida effect as usual. Umayos ka, malakas backer ko...pipitikers ka namin. Haha!
Da who ang talikogenic (daw sabi ko, blog ko toh la ng kokontra! Ako lang pwedeng pumili ag bida dito) na ito?! Haha! Yebah! That's me! ='D Pagupit ako kanina... La lang, new look effect lang nagsawa na kasi ko sa long hair kong pasaway. Kaya yan, hmpf! Ayaw kasing makisama, for that... gupit! Pero aktali ang sabi ko shoulder level, ewan ko ba kung bakit ganyan kaiksi, wala ba kong leeg?! Hmmmn...
Ang layo ng PAL Placement! Grabe, dulo dulo... imagine from Tandang Sora to Pasay?! Grabe na itetch! Buti nalang may MRT at kung hindi malamang 10yrs bago ko nakarating doon, at hindi lang malamang ngarag na ko pagdating doon.
Sinamahan ako ni Papang (Thanks Pang!) para hindi ako mahirapan maghanap (kasi hindi naman ako Manila Girl, QC girl kasi ako,hehe!). 8:30 ang sinabing time and dumating ako ng 8:25, just in time para makahinga pa ko ng mabuti bago magstart ang interview.
"Impact Interview" ang tawag nila doon sa klase ng interview na ginawa samin kasi daw titignan kung ano daw ang impact samin ng nagsasalita sa maraming tao. Mala first day of class effect, na say something about yourself na shemps yung hindi nakalagay sa resume then lalakad ka papunta sa interviewer ito naman ang rampa effect kasi pati lakad eh tinitigan then saka ka na tatanungin ng kung ano man ang trip nila itanung nila sayo. Then pag tapos na lahat isa isa kayong tatawagin at aabutan ng papel na kung saan nakalagay ang verdict if youre in or out.
Out of 12 (6 boys & 6 girls) eh 1 lang ang nakuha samin. Shempre rant rant ang drama ng iba habang papalabas, ako naman ok lang kasi mej alam ko na kung ano...hehe! Gugutom na kasi ako so nagmamadali na din ako umalis para makapunta na ko sa office ni Mama at makakain kasi sabi ko sabay kami. Tsaka nakapagusap naman kami ni Lord na cocomfort niya ko agad kasi ayoko na sasama loob ko pag di ako nakuha, so yun ayus lang kahit PALpak...hehe!
10am - Pentathlon Asia My first interview went well, i got the position pero hindi ko pa tinatanggap. Its an IT company kasi, eh nenung ko sa IT... ala naman akong ka-ayja ayja sa IT kahit na ba documentation palang, nenung ko sa terms ng mga IT chuvaness pag nag report ako. Hay, natatakot lang ba ako?! ='S
2:30pm - C-Gull Teleservices Final interview na (supposedly). Ayon sa mga nag evaluate sakin ay ok naman daw ang diction, ok naman daw ang fluency, at ang voice quality kaso nga lang... kulang daw sa confidence. Yun lang naman daw ang naging problema kaso kasi malaking factor daw yun. So ang naging tanung ay "Saan ba galing yung lack of confidence? Can we do something about it? Sige, do you want to say something?" Pwede bang sumagot ng, "Yes Sir, something!"? Hay eh di sinabi ko ang totoo na first time ko kasi at andito ako sa shop nun at nagtratrabaho kaya makakailang. So ulitin daw ang survey sa 25 para ma check kung kaya kong i-improve. Hmmmn... hanggang sa boses pala nalalaman na hindi ako confident. Hanu vah?! Aaaah, san ko ba nakuha tong sakit na toh?! ='(
May isa pa kong interview sa monday. Sa PAL naman, yun walang dudang related sa course ko pero... frontline position?! Kinda vague ang description. Frontline?! Eh wala nga akong experience pa na related sa tourism. Hmmmn, sana lang nabasa nilang mabuti ang resume ko.
Sa tinagal tagal ng panahon na nagpasa pasa ako ng resume sa kung saan-saan ngayon palang nagyaring may tumawag sakin kaya windang na halos sabay sabay pa sila. Answered prayer infairness! Thank You Lord! At first exciting kasi C-Gull palang so hindi mahirap pumili kaso nung dumagdag ang Pentathlon Asia naging debate na, ngayong dadagdag pa ang PAL stress na itoh! 3 choices at lahat galing kay Lord so its a choice between good, better, or best. If i wont make it sa PAL eh better or best nalang. Ano nga kaya?! Ano bang gusto ko? Alin ba ang dapat?!
Sabi nga na pag debate na betweenyour willorGod's willeitherwaysomeone has to dieand eitherway eh ako yun. If I choose to follow my will, in theend taloako kasi hindiko napili ang God's bestfor me. If I choose to follow God's will eh i have to sacrifice what i want, in short:die to self.
Hindi ko alam kung ang mapapasukan kong trabaho ay panghabambuhay na, pero ang alam ko malaking factor ito sa magiging buhay ko in the future. I want what's best for me kahit na mahirap basta yung sa huli hindi ako talo. Die Bobbie! Die...
Friends pagpray nyo naman ako. Lord, discernment po...
17One day as he was teaching, Pharisees and teachers of the law, who had come from every village of Galilee and from Judea and Jerusalem, were sitting there. And the power of the Lord was present for him to heal the sick. 18Some men came carrying a paralytic on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus. 19When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus.
20When Jesus saw their faith, he said, "Friend, your sins are forgiven."
21The Pharisees and the teachers of the law began thinking to themselves, "Who is this fellow who speaks blasphemy? Who can forgive sins but God alone?"
22Jesus knew what they were thinking and asked, "Why are you thinking these things in your hearts? 23Which is easier: to say, 'Your sins are forgiven,' or to say, 'Get up and walk'? 24But that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins...." He said to the paralyzed man, "I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home." 25Immediately he stood up in front of them, took what he had been lying on and went home praising God. 26Everyone was amazed and gave praise to God. They were filled with awe and said, "We have seen remarkable things today."
Session 1(Why are you here?) akala ko nakarelate lang ako safriends of the paralytickasi same nawe went to Jesus with an expectant heartpero during theCell Group Devotion#1feeling ko combination na ako ng friends & crowd kasi nasa retreat din pala ako tomake usi ang difference lang eh hindi ako passive sa pag-uusi ko kung anung gimik ni Lord. NungSession 2 (You and your faith) narealize kongmay something sa faith kong kailangang maayos then nungSession 3 (What Jesus did) narealize ko nain a way eh paralytic din pala akodahil nga may mali sa faith ko and kailangan ma-heal yun.
So recharged from the retreat I can say that I'm still in an emotional high right now. I went with an expectant heart @ akala ko sobra yung inexpect ko pero I got more than what I was expecting, I got not just what i wanted but also what I needed. Hindi lang ako na-heal na-forgive pa ako. Never talagang sakto lang yung binibigay ni Lord laging more than enough, hay super galante talaga bast amag trust ka and willing ka na mag claim. Astig, He never fails to amaze me!
For Christians earth is just a temporary place to live in, this isn't our "home". So ano palang reli ng araw-araw na ibinubuhay namin dito?! Kasi every day is a journey home to heaven kaya we have to live each day para makarating kami sa aming "home". Pero hindi pwedeng ganun lang na gigising at gagawa ng kung anu-ano hanggang matapos ang araw. Dapat like what the pralytic did when he received healing and forgiveness we should go home praising God too. We should live each day doing something that glorifies Him. Easy for me to say kasi "high" pa ako?! Kung i-see-seek naman talaga natin ang face Niya, kung kukulitin natin si Lord to reveal to us kahit one Kingdom Secret a day, and if we wake up every morning na may something na gagawin or ipapagawa si Lord satin, hindi ba exciting yun?! All we need is that thing called FAITH plus that PASSION for HIM... Yes it is not that easy but knowing that God is there to back me up eh why not chocknut?! So what now?! Eh di may bago kong commitment dahil hindi na ako paralytic, magiging friend of the paralytic na ako. Because i'm healed, i'll bring paralytic friends (shemps hindi yung literal diba?!) to Jesus for healing and to be forgiven.
RETREAT NA BUKAS...WEEEEE!!! Super excited ako, ewan ko kung bakit pero hindi talaga ito normal sakin. Naka ilang retreats na din ako since naging christian ako and never pa akong naka feel ng ganitong excitement. Ewan, iba talaga to hmmmn...ano bang gimik natin Lord, wazzup ba?!Hehe! Ano kayang hanppenings @ ganito nalang ako ka-excited?!
ATTENTION!!! Youth leaders: Cux, Tiara & Aldrin & UPCYM ExeCom: Carla, Salvs, Earla, Dimps & Ace (may nakalimutan pa ba ko?), hallur!!! Pressure!!! Pressure kayo dyan!!! Haha! Friends tayo ha?! ='D Gandahan nyo ha?! Yung tipong sa sobrang ganda ayoko ng maging participant next retreat dapat ma-inspire ako na gugustuhin ko na din mag lead sa susunod. Ha?! (Grabe ma-mressure hehe!)='P.
Basta, ito tunay na im coming with an expectant heart. I hope everyones as excited as i am. Lord!!! Lets go!I can't wait to see na kung anung gagawin mo... nahi-hyper ako (ADHD?!). Haaay, prepare our hearts Lord...
